44 Scotland Street - Alexander McCall Smith [146]
She looked at Dr Fairbairn. “What you say is obviously true,”
she said. “But I wonder: what shall I do to move Bertie on?”
“Give him a clear sense of where he’s going next,” replied Dr Fairbairn. “Take him to the place he’s going to. That is what we all need – to see the place we’re going to.”
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Bertie sat in a small waiting room while Irene talked to the director of admissions at the Steiner School. He was not alone; on the other side of the simply-furnished room was a boy of about his own age, or perhaps slightly older, a boy with tousled fair hair, freckles around the cheek bones, and a missing front tooth. Bertie, who was wearing corduroy dungarees and his red 306
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lace-up shoes, noticed that this boy was wearing jeans and a checked shirt. It was a splendid outfit, thought Bertie – the sort of outfit which he would have seen cowboys wearing in cowboy films, had he ever been allowed to watch any. For a time they avoided eye contact, staring instead at the brightlycoloured pictures on the wall and the pattern of the tiles on the floor. Every so often, though, one of the boys would sneak a glance at the other, and then quickly look away before he was noticed. Eventually, though, they glanced at the same time, and their eyes locked together. Bertie opened his mouth to speak, but the other boy spoke first.
“My name’s Jock,” said the boy. “What’s your name?”
Bertie caught his breath. Jock was a wonderful name to have
– it was so strong, so friendly. Life must be easy if one were lucky enough to be called Jock. But instead they had called him Bertie, and of course he could hardly tell this boy that.
“I don’t usually give my name,” Bertie said. “Sorry.”
Jock frowned. ‘You can tell me. I won’t tell anybody.”
Bertie looked Jock squarely in the eye. “You can’t break promises, you know.”
“I know that,” said Jock. “And I never would.”
“Bertie,” said Bertie.
“Hah!” said Jock.
A short silence followed. Then Bertie said: “Are you going to Steiner’s?”
Jock shook his head. “I’ve come here for them to look at me,”
he said. “But I don’t think my parents will send me here. I’m going to go to Watson’s.”
Bertie’s eyes narrowed. Watson’s! That was where he wanted to go – that was where they played rugby and had secret societies. That was where real boys went; sensitive boys came to the Steiner School. The thought caused him a pang of anguish. He would have liked Jock to be his friend, but now it seemed as if they would be going to different schools. All Bertie wanted was a friend – another boy who would like the same sort of things that he liked – trains and things of that sort. And he had no such person.
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“I envy you going to Watson’s,” said Bertie. “You’re lucky. Will you play rugby?”
“Yes,” said Jock. “I’ve already started going to rugby for the under-sixes.”
The words stabbed at Bertie. Rugby was the game he wanted to play – like that nice man, Bruce, who lived on the stair. But he had never had the chance, and it was clear, too, that his mother disapproved of Bruce, and of Mrs Macdonald, and of everyone, really, except for Dr Fairbairn, who was mad, as far as Bertie could work out. Would Irene disapprove of his new friend, Jock?
He thought she probably would.
“Do you like trains?” Bertie asked suddenly.
Jock took the sudden change of subject in his stride. “I love them,” he said.
Bertie looked wistful. “Have you . . . have you ever been on a train?” he asked.
Jock nodded. “Of course,” he said. “I went to London on a train, and back again. And I’ve been to Dundee. I went over the Forth Bridge and the Tay Bridge. Then we came back and went over the bridges again. That’s four times over a bridge altogether. Or does that make five?