999_ Twenty-Nine Original Tales of Horror and Suspense - Al Sarrantonio [298]
FATHER
What the fuck you care?
DOMINIC
You’re my father. I care. Sons are supposed to care about their fathers … or haven’t you heard?
FATHER
(coughing)
Don’t get wise with me! I can still get out of this chair and whomp you one!
DOMINIC
(smiling sadly)
Is that the only form of communication you know?—“Whomping” people?
FATHER
(laughing)
Ah, it’s not even worth it! You and your fancy words … What do you know about bein’ a man?
DOMINIC
Dad, I wanted you to be there tonight. You knew I wanted you there … didn’t you?
His father looked at him and the hardness in his eyes seemed to soften a bit. Looking away, Joseph Kazan spoke in a low voice.
FATHER
Yeah … yeah, I knew.
DOMINIC
So why weren’t you there? Did it really feel better to crawl into one of those sewers you call a bar and get filthy drunk? Did you think that getting juiced would make it all go away? What do—
FATHER
Shut up! Shut up before I whomp ya!
His father had put his hands over his ears, trying to shut out the offending words.
DOMINIC
No, I don’t think so. I don’t think you’ll be “whomping” anybody. Ever again.
FATHER
That’s brave words from a wimp like you.
DOMINIC
Don’t talk to me about “brave.” Why didn’t you come to the play tonight? My play! Your son’s play!
FATHER
What’re you talkin’ about?
DOMINIC
What were you afraid of, Dad? That maybe some of your buddies might see you? Might catch you going to see a bunch of “faggots"?
FATHER
Hah! See, you even admit it yourself!
Dominic’s mother moved in between the two men.
MOTHER
Oh God, look at you two! So much anger … so much hate. Please, stop it…!
DOMINIC
Hate? No, Mom, that’s not right. A lack of love, maybe … but not really hate. There’s a difference.
FATHER
(looking at his son)
What the hell do you know?
DOMINIC
I think that’s the heart of the problem around here—not enough love in this house. There isn’t any love here. No warmth … no love.
FATHER
Shit, I’ll tell y’about love! I worked for yer Mom for thirty-five years. Worked hard! Did she ever have to go out’n take a job like other guys’ wives? Shit, no!
His father was trembling as he spoke, his florid face puffy and shining with sweat.
DOMINIC
There’s more to love than that, Dad. Like the love between you and me … When I was a kid, did you ever just sit down and play with me? Did you ever tell me stories, or try to make me laugh? How about going fishing together, or flying a kite? Did we ever do anything like that?
FATHER
A man has to work!
DOMINIC
Did you really love your work that much?
FATHER
What do y’mean?
DOMINIC
Did you love your work more than me?
FATHER
(confused, angry)
Don’t talk no bullshit to me!
DOMINIC
It’s not bullshit, Dad. Listen, when I was little—no brothers or sisters—I spent a lot of time alone. Sometimes I needed someone to guide me, to teach me.
FATHER
I never ran out and never came home at night … ask your mother! I was always there, every night!
DOMINIC
(smiling sadly)
Oh, yeah, you were there physically. But never emotionally, can’t you see that? I can remember seeing other kids out doing things with their fathers, and I can remember really hating’ them—because they had something I never did. That kind of stuff hurt me a lot more than your belt ever did.
His father did not respond, but looked down at his lap, where he had unconsciously knotted his hands together.
MOTHER
Dominic, leave him alone now. Let’s all have some coffee, and we can—
DOMINIC
No, Mom. Let’s finish it. Let’s get it all out. It’s been a long time coming.
(to his father)
Hey, Dad … do you know I have no memories of you ever encouraging me to do anything? Except all that macho shit.
FATHER
What kind of shit?
DOMINIC
Remember when I saved my paper route money and bought