A Little Book of Eternal Wisdom [7]
Eternal Wisdom meet him in a
spiritual and ineffable form, and lead him through bitter and sweet until
she brought him to the right path of divine truth. And after well reflecting
on his wonderful progress, he thus spoke to God; Sweet and tender Lord! from
the days of my childhood my mind has sought for something with burning
thirst, but what it is I have not as yet fully understood. Lord, I have
pursued it ardently many a year, but I never could grasp it, for I know not
what it is, and yet it is something that attracts my heart and soul, without
which I never can attain true rest. Lord, I sought it in the first days of
my childhood, as I saw done around me, in creatures, but the more I sought
it in them the less I found it, and the nearer I approached them the further
I receded from it, for every image that presented itself to my sight, before
I wholly tried it, or gave myself up quietly to it, warned me away thus: "I
am not what thou seekest!" And this repulsion I have experienced more and
more in all things. Lord, now my heart rages after it, for my heart would so
gladly possess it. Alas! I have so constantly had to experience what it is
not! But what it is, Lord, I am not as yet clear. Tell me, beloved Lord,
what it is indeed, and what is its nature, that so secretly agitates me.
Answer of Eternal Wisdom.--Dost thou not know it? And yet it has
lovingly embraced thee, has often stopped thee in the way, until it has at
length won thee for itself alone.
The Servant.--Lord, I never saw it; never heard of it: I know not what
it is.
Eternal Wisdom.--This is not surprising, for its strangeness and thy
familiarity with creatures were the cause. But now open thy interior eyes
and see who I am. It is I, the Eternal Wisdom, who, with the embrace of My
eternal providence, have chosen thee in eternity for Myself alone. I have
barred the way to thee as often as thou wouldst have parted company with Me,
had I permitted thee. In all things thou didst ever meet with some obstacle
and it is the sweet sign of My elect that I will needs have them for Myself.
The Servant.--Tender loving Wisdom! And is it Thou I have so long been
seeking for? is it Thou my spirit has so constantly struggled for? Alas, my
God, why didst Thou not show Thyself to me long ago? Why hast Thou delayed
so long? How many a weary way have I not wandered!
Eternal Wisdom.--Had I done so thou wouldst not have known My goodness
so sensibly as now thou knowest it.
The Servant.--O unfathomable goodness! how very sweetly hast Thou not
manifested Thyself to me! When I was not, Thou gavest me being. When I had
separated from Thee, Thou didst not separate from me; when I wished to
escape from Thee, Thou didst hold me sweetly captive. Yes, Thou Eternal
Wisdom, if my heart might embrace Thee and consume all my days with Thee in
love and praise, such would be its desire; for truly that man is blest whom
Thou dost anticipate so lovingly that Thou lettest him have nowhere true
rest, till he seeks his rest in Thee alone. O Wisdom Elect! since in Thee I
have found Him whom my soul loveth, despise not Thy poor creature. See how
dumb my heart is to all the world in joy and sorrow. Lord, is my heart
always to be dumb towards Thee? O give my wretched soul leave, my dearest
Lord, to speak a word with Thee, for my heart is too full to contain itself
any longer; neither has it anyone in all this world to whom it can unburden
itself, except to Thee, my elected Lord, Father, and Brother. Lord, Thou
alone knowest the nature of a love overflowing heart, and knowest that no
one can love what he cannot in any way know. Therefore, since I am now to
love Thee alone, give me to know Thee entirely, so that I may be also able
to love Thee entirely.
Eternal Wisdom.--The highest emanation of all beings, taken in their
natural order, is through the noblest beings to the lowest, but their
refluence to their origin is through the lowest to the highest. Therefore,
if thou art wishful to behold Me in My uncreated Divinity
spiritual and ineffable form, and lead him through bitter and sweet until
she brought him to the right path of divine truth. And after well reflecting
on his wonderful progress, he thus spoke to God; Sweet and tender Lord! from
the days of my childhood my mind has sought for something with burning
thirst, but what it is I have not as yet fully understood. Lord, I have
pursued it ardently many a year, but I never could grasp it, for I know not
what it is, and yet it is something that attracts my heart and soul, without
which I never can attain true rest. Lord, I sought it in the first days of
my childhood, as I saw done around me, in creatures, but the more I sought
it in them the less I found it, and the nearer I approached them the further
I receded from it, for every image that presented itself to my sight, before
I wholly tried it, or gave myself up quietly to it, warned me away thus: "I
am not what thou seekest!" And this repulsion I have experienced more and
more in all things. Lord, now my heart rages after it, for my heart would so
gladly possess it. Alas! I have so constantly had to experience what it is
not! But what it is, Lord, I am not as yet clear. Tell me, beloved Lord,
what it is indeed, and what is its nature, that so secretly agitates me.
Answer of Eternal Wisdom.--Dost thou not know it? And yet it has
lovingly embraced thee, has often stopped thee in the way, until it has at
length won thee for itself alone.
The Servant.--Lord, I never saw it; never heard of it: I know not what
it is.
Eternal Wisdom.--This is not surprising, for its strangeness and thy
familiarity with creatures were the cause. But now open thy interior eyes
and see who I am. It is I, the Eternal Wisdom, who, with the embrace of My
eternal providence, have chosen thee in eternity for Myself alone. I have
barred the way to thee as often as thou wouldst have parted company with Me,
had I permitted thee. In all things thou didst ever meet with some obstacle
and it is the sweet sign of My elect that I will needs have them for Myself.
The Servant.--Tender loving Wisdom! And is it Thou I have so long been
seeking for? is it Thou my spirit has so constantly struggled for? Alas, my
God, why didst Thou not show Thyself to me long ago? Why hast Thou delayed
so long? How many a weary way have I not wandered!
Eternal Wisdom.--Had I done so thou wouldst not have known My goodness
so sensibly as now thou knowest it.
The Servant.--O unfathomable goodness! how very sweetly hast Thou not
manifested Thyself to me! When I was not, Thou gavest me being. When I had
separated from Thee, Thou didst not separate from me; when I wished to
escape from Thee, Thou didst hold me sweetly captive. Yes, Thou Eternal
Wisdom, if my heart might embrace Thee and consume all my days with Thee in
love and praise, such would be its desire; for truly that man is blest whom
Thou dost anticipate so lovingly that Thou lettest him have nowhere true
rest, till he seeks his rest in Thee alone. O Wisdom Elect! since in Thee I
have found Him whom my soul loveth, despise not Thy poor creature. See how
dumb my heart is to all the world in joy and sorrow. Lord, is my heart
always to be dumb towards Thee? O give my wretched soul leave, my dearest
Lord, to speak a word with Thee, for my heart is too full to contain itself
any longer; neither has it anyone in all this world to whom it can unburden
itself, except to Thee, my elected Lord, Father, and Brother. Lord, Thou
alone knowest the nature of a love overflowing heart, and knowest that no
one can love what he cannot in any way know. Therefore, since I am now to
love Thee alone, give me to know Thee entirely, so that I may be also able
to love Thee entirely.
Eternal Wisdom.--The highest emanation of all beings, taken in their
natural order, is through the noblest beings to the lowest, but their
refluence to their origin is through the lowest to the highest. Therefore,
if thou art wishful to behold Me in My uncreated Divinity