A sudden, fearful death - Anne Perry [166]
It had been a brilliant move emotionally, but tactically it made Rathbone’s next question more difficult to frame. He debated whether to delay it, and decided it would be seen as evasive.
“Sir Herbert …” He walked a couple of steps closer to the witness box and looked up. “The prosecution’s evidence against you was a number of letters from Prudence Barrymore to her sister in which she writes of her profound feelings toward you, and the belief that you returned those feelings and would shortly make her the happiest of women. Is this a realistic view, a practical and honest one? These are her own words, and not misquoted.”
Sir Herbert shook his head, his face creased with confusion.
“I simply cannot understand it,” he said ruefully. “I swear before God, I have never given her the slightest cause to think I held her in that kind of regard, and I have spent hours, days, trying to think of anything I could have said or done that could give her such an impression, and I honestly can think of nothing.”
He shook his head again, biting his lip. “Perhaps I am casual in manner, and may have allowed myself to speak informally to those with whom I work, but I truly cannot see how any person would have interpreted my remarks as statements of personal affection. I simply spoke to a trusted colleague in whom I had the utmost confidence.” He hesitated. Several jurors nodded in sympathy and understanding. From their faces it seemed they too had had such experiences. It was all eminently reasonable. A look of profound regret transformed his features.
“Perhaps I was remiss?” he said gravely. “I am not a romantic man. I have been happily married for over twenty years to the only woman whom I have ever regarded in that light.” He smiled self-consciously.
Above in the gallery women nudged each other understandingly.
“She would tell you I have little imagination in that region of my life,” Sir Herbert continued. “As you may see, I am not a handsome or dashing figure. I have never been the subject of the romantic attentions of young ladies. There are far more …” He hesitated, searching for the right word. “More charming and likely men for such a role. We have a number of medical students, gifted, young, good-looking, and with fine futures ahead of them. And of course there are other senior doctors as well, with greater gifts than mine in charm and appealing manner. Quite frankly, it never occurred to me that anyone might view me in that light.”
Rathbone adopted a sympathetic stance, although Sir Herbert was doing so well he hardly needed help.
“Did Miss Barrymore never say anything which struck you as more than usually admiring, nothing personal rather than professional?” he asked. “I imagine you are used to the very considerable respect of your staff and the gratitude of your patients, but please think carefully, with the wisdom of hindsight.”
Sir Herbert shrugged and smiled candidly and apologetically.
“Believe me, Mr. Rathbone, I have tried, but on every occasion on which I spent time, admittedly a great deal of time, with Nurse Barrymore, my mind was on the medical case with which we were engaged. I never saw her in any other connection.” He drew his brows together in an effort of concentration.
“I thought of her with respect, with trust, with the utmost confidence in her dedication and her ability, but I did not think of her personally.” He looked down. “It seems I was grievously in the wrong in that, which I profoundly regret. I have daughters of my own, as you no doubt know, but my profession has kept me so fully occupied that their upbringing has been largely left to their mother. I do not really know the ways of young women as well as I might, as well as many men whose personal lives allow them more time in their homes and with their families than does mine.”
There was a whisper and rustle of sympathy around the court.
“It is a price I do not pay willingly.” He bit his lip. “And it seems perhaps it may have been