A Test of Wills - Charles Todd [91]
Rutledge felt cold. Was that the reason he’d been given this case? As the scapegoat for failure? Was that why they hadn’t mentioned Hickam? Hoping that the shock of discovering the truth might be too much for the balance of Rutledge’s mind as well? Or, alternatively, if he was successful…he was also expendable? When he brought the wrath of Buckingham Palace down on the Yard’s head, he could be quietly returned to the clinic, with regret that the experiment hadn’t worked out. For the Yard. For Rutledge. For the doctors who’d had faith in him.
It was a frightening prospect. While Hamish rattled gleefully around in the silence, Rutledge fought his anger. And his fear. And the dreadful loss of hope, a hope that’d buoyed him through the worst days at the clinic as he fought for survival and the harsh reality of returning to London….
He promised himself that he wouldn’t return to the clinic. He wouldn’t go back to failure. There were other choices. There always were. To a man who feared living more than he feared death.
Sunday morning was overcast, a misting rain fading into low, heavy clouds that hung about Upper Streetham like ghosts. The heat was oppressive, wrapping the damp around people making their way to the church and wreathing the air inside with a breathlessness that even the open doors couldn’t drain away.
Rutledge went to see Hickam before walking down to the church. The man was sleeping when he arrived, but the housekeeper was a little more optimistic about his condition. Still, she wouldn’t let Rutledge come in.
“Stronger. That’s all I can tell you. But the doctor, now, he was dragged out to the Pinter farm last night, tired as he was, and he said it was all your doing!” Her voice was sharp with condemnation. “He’s not going to church this morning either, I can tell you that! Not if you haven’t roused him up with your banging on the door.”
“But the child’s all right? She seems better?” he asked. “Did she sleep?”
“No thanks to you! Get on with your own business, and leave doctoring to those who know what’s best!”
Rutledge thanked her and went on to the church. The last of the parishioners were hurrying through the lych-gate and he could hear the sound of the organ as he walked quickly down the Court. He’d found before the war that going to the church the victim had attended sometimes gave him a better feeling for the atmosphere of the town or the part of London in question. Anything that brought the victim into better perspective was useful.
The oppressiveness of the morning hung around the church door, and a flush of claustrophobia left him suddenly breathless. He shook his head at the usher ready to lead him down the aisle to a seat and stepped instead into the last one on the back row, where he could escape the heat and the crush of bodies.
Before the first prayer, someone slipped in beside him. Looking up, he met Catherine Tarrant’s equally surprised eyes. Then she sat down and ignored him as she fumbled for her prayer book. It was an old one, he saw, and she found her place without trouble.
The service was High Church, which befitted the image of a man like Carfield. He brought to everyone’s attention the fact that the funeral for Charles Harris would be held on Tuesday morning at ten, then spent several minutes lauding the dead man in a sonorous voice that echoed around the stone arches and through the nave. You’d have thought, Rutledge told himself, that they were burying a saint, not a soldier.
He let his eyes wander, taking in the high-vaulted ceiling, the slender pillars, and a small but very fine reredos behind the altar. Above that was a rather plain east window. The reredos was of stone, a representation of the Last Supper, and the figures had a grace about them that was pleasing.
The Haldane family tombs were just visible from where he sat; they were ornate marble, with clusters of cherubs as mourners around the bases. Several of the figures were medieval, a handful were Elizabethan, while the Victorian representations