Agaat - Marlene van Niekerk [160]
The trocar and cannula.
The lip-halter.
The mowing-snaffle.
A bray-pole.
A tine of the shallow-toothed harrow.
A rowel from the seed-hopper.
The tool with which the fencing-wire is twisted.
One by one she came and held the things in front of me. Until I signalled no, that’s not what I want to see. Sometimes I thought she wanted to put the snaffle under my tongue, fit the halter to my upper lip, punch a hole in me with the trocar between my short-rib and my hipbone in hopes of deflating me, so that the sound from my hip would sound the word for her, the name of the thing that I’m dying to see, the old maps that for her own murky reasons she cannot find in her heart to go and dig up in the sitting room. As if she’s scared that something might bite her there in the sideboard.
Tchip, tchip, tchip, go the scissors, faster and faster. I feel the blades against my ear. Hair goes flying. The whole awning is full of snippings. I see them dry, the little wet tails becoming fluff, puffing up, starting to roll around and disintegrate, thousands of crescents stirring in the slipstream of my stylist as she moves around the bed. Here comes the spray bottle. Zirrrts, zoorrrts, from all sides. As if I were a rose-tree full of lice. Rosecare. What’s in a rose. Young Miss Redelinghuys. The rose of Tradouw.
She starts a second round of snipping.
I want to see the mirror, I signal. Now!
Wait, she says, I haven’t nearly done. All the old fluff in the neck, she says.
Grrr, grrr, grrr, she saws at it with the serrated blade. My head is cold.
Almost done. Here’s another loose strand. Here’s another tuft. Oh well, that will have to do, Ounooi, it’s not as if your hair is what it used to be.
She brings the drier. The little hand twists and tosses my hair under the stream of hot air.
It’s too hot, I say.
Too this too that, says Agaat. She switches the drier to cold.
Don’t come and complain to me if your nose runs, she says.
She brings the mirror closer again. Last time I looked like Liza Minnelli. Before that like Mary Quant.
It’s the magnifying face of the mirror that she holds in front of me. My chin and cheeks bulge and distort, my haircut falls beyond the frame.
And then God saw that it was good, says Agaat, are you also satisfied?
Thank you.
Rather stingy with compliments tonight, aren’t we, says Agaat, use your imagination. You look exactly like Julie Andrews.
The hills are alive with the sound of music, Agaat hums. One phrase, then she changes her tune.
My grandma’s mangy hen.
Clack, she pulls the tape from the player. Too many tunes for one throat.
Now the ears, she says.
Well and good, my ears are exposed to view now.
The top comes off the little bottle of Johnson’s ear buds. Plop. Agaat shakes the bottle so that it looks like a porcupine full of quills.
First wet, she says, then dry.
She dips the end of the ear bud in a bowl of water.
The deaf adder that stoppeth her ear, she says, full of old wax. Say if it’s too deep.
She looks into my eyes while she pushes the lukewarm bud into my ear.
Just let me be please, I signal, it’s been too deep for a while now, you don’t need clean ears to die.
Oh yes, says Agaat, you do, St Peter sticks in his key to check.
She twists and twirls the stick. Liquid gushes in my left ear. It blocks up. One half of the world mutes.
Still waters, says Agaat.
The stick emerges with a dark-brown lump on its point. She holds it in front of my nose.
Well-greased, she says. Very healthy still. Pure turf.
She examines it minutely before she wipes it on the sheet and pushes the other end into my ear vigorously.
Please, don’t you have any respect? I ask.
It could have been worse, says Agaat as she takes possession of the other ear. Her voice cracks, she swallows the rest.