All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [159]
“God damn it,” I said, “God damn it, what’s he blaming you for, why doesn’t he blame Governor Stanton?”
“He does,” she said. “Oh, he blames him. That is what is so awful. The way he blames him. His father. You remember–you remember, Jack–” she reached out and laid her hand on my forearm–“you remember–our father–how he was–how he used to read to us–how he loved us–how he taught Adam and how proud he was on him–how he took all that time to teach Adam himself–oh, Jack, he sat there in front of the fire and I was a little girl and he would read to us and I put my head against his knee–oh, Jack–you remember?”
“I remember,” I said
“Yes,” she said, “yes–and mother was dead and father did all he could–he was so proud of Adam–and now Adam–and now–” She released my arm, and stepped back and lifted her hands, putting her fingers to her forehead in a distracted gesture. “Oh, Jack, what Have I done?” she whispered.
“You did what you thought you ought to do,” I said firmly.
“Yes,” she whispered, “yes, that was it.”
“It’s done now,” I said.
“Yes, it is done,” she said, out loud, and her jaw closed with an expression which suddenly made her look like Adam, the mouth firm and sealed, the skin drawn and tight on the flesh, and she lifted her head to stare the world down, and I felt like bursting into tears. If that had been my habit.
“Yes,” I said, “it’s done.”
“He’ll do it,” she said.
And I almost demanded, What, do what? For, for the moment, I had forgotten the reason that I had told Anne the facts, the reason that I had given her the photostats, the reason that she had shown them to her brother. I had forgotten that there was a reason. But I remembered now, and questioned, “You persuaded him?”
“No,” she shook her head slowly, “no, I didn’t say anything. I gave those things to him. He knew.”
“What happened?”
“What I told you. He looked at me hard, and said ‘You.’ Just like that. Then I said, ‘Adam, don’t say it that way, you mustn’t, Adam, you mustn’t!’ And he said, ‘Why?’ And I said, ‘Because I love you, because I love him, love Father.’ And he kept on looking at me, then said, ‘Love him!’ Then, ‘Damn his soul to hell!’ I called out, ‘Adam, Adam,’ but he turned his back on me, and walked across the room to his bedroom door and went in and shut the door. Then I went out and walked by myself, in the dark, for a long time. So I could sleep. For three days I didn’t hear from him. Then he asked me to come to see him. I went, and he gave me back those things.” She pointed to the manila envelope. “He told me to tell you that he would do it. To arrange it. That was all.”
“That was a good deal,” I said.
“Yes,” she said, and moved past me toward the door. She put her hand to the knob, turned it, and drew the door ajar. She looked back at me, and said, “Yes, it was a good deal.”
And went out.
But she stood with her hand on the doorjamb. “One thing,” she said.
“What?” I asked.
“A favor,” she said, “to me. Before you ever use those things, those papers, show them to Judge Irwin. Give him a chance. At least, a chance.”
I agreed to that.
The big black Cadillac, the hood glistening dully under the street lamps–as I could see even from the back seat–eased down the street, making its expensive whisper under the boughs which had new leaves on them, for it was early April now. Then we got to a street where there were not any nice trees arching over.
“Here,” I said, “that place on the right, just beyond that grocery.”
Sugar-Boy put the Cadillac up to the curb, like a mother laying Little Precious down with a last kiss. The he ran around to open the door for the Boss, but he boss already on the curb. I uncoiled myself and stood beside him. “This is the joint,