All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [39]
Lucy looked at me with a confident birdlike lift of her head, as though she had proved something to me. The secondary glow of the light above the circle of light was on her face, and if I had wanted to I could have guessed that some of that glow was given off softly by her face as though the flesh had a delicate and unflagging and serene phosphorescence from its own inwardness.
Well, Lucy was a woman, and therefore she must have been wonderful in the way women are wonderful. She turned her face to me with that expression which seemed to say, “See, I told you, that’s the way it is,” and meanwhile Willie sat there. But his own face seemed to be pulling off again into the distance which was not distance but which was, shall I say, simply himself.
Lucy was sewing now, and talking to me while looking down at the cloth, and after a little Willie got up and started to walk up and down the room, with his forelock coming down over his eyes. He kept on pacing back and forth while Lucy and I talked.
It wasn’t very soothing to have that going on across one end of the room.
Finally, Lucy looked up from her sewing, and said, “Honey–”
Willie stopped pacing and swung his head at her with the forelock down over his eyes to give him the look of a mean horse then he’s cornered in the angle of the pasture fence with his head down a little and the mane shagged forward between the ears, and the eyes both wild and shrewd, watching you step up with the bridle, and getting ready to bolt.
“Sit down, honey,” Lucy said, “you make me nervous. You’re just like Tommie, you can’t ever sit still.” Then she laughed, and with a sort of shamefaced grin on his face he came over and sat down.
She was a fine woman, and he was lucky to have her.
But he was also lucky to have the Sheriff and Dolph Pillsbury, for they were doing him a favor and not knowing it. He didn’t seem to know it either at the time, that they were his luck. But perhaps the essential part of him was knowing it all the time, only word hadn’t quite got around to the other and accidental parts of him. Or it is possible that fellows like Willie Stark are born outside of luck, good or bad, and luck, which is what about makes you and me what we are, doesn’t have anything to do with them, for they are what they are from the time they first kick in the womb until the end. And if this is the case, then their life history is a process of discovering that they really are, and not, as for you and me, sons of luck, a process of becoming what luck makes us. And if that is the case, then Lucy wasn’t Willie’s luck. Or his unluck either. She was part of the climate in which the process of discovering the real Willie was taking place.
But, speaking vulgarly, the Sheriff and Pillsbury were part of Willie’s luck. I didn’t know it that night in pappy’s parlor, and I didn’t know it when I got back to town and gave Jim Madison my tale. Well, Willie began to appear in the Chronicle in the role of the boy upon the burning deck and the boy who put his finger in the dike and the boy who replies “I can” when Duty whispers low “Thou must.” The Chronicle was turning up more and more tales about finagling in county courthouses around the state. It pointed the finger of fine scorn and reprobation all over the map. Then I began to grasp the significance of what was going on in that world of reasons high above the desk of Jim Madison, and caught the glint of those diaphanous spirit wings and the fluting whispers of faint angel voices up there. In brief, this: The happy harmony in the state machine was a thing of the past, and the Chronicle was lined up with the soreheads, and was hacking away at the county substructure of the machine. It was starting there, feeling its way, setting the stage and preparing the back-drop for the real show. It wasn’t as hard as it might have been. Ordinarily the country boys in the county courthouses have plenty of savvy and know