All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [71]
Until the front door banged, and there were steps in the hall. I knew that it was Theodore Murrell, and started to heave up again. But even now, just for the last instant, she pressed her palm down on my forehead, and didn’t let go until the sound of Theodore’s steps had entered the room.
I got to my feet, feeling my coat crawling up around my neck and my tie under one ear, and looked across at Theodore, who had a beautiful blond mustache and apple cheeks and pale hair laid like taffy on a round skull and a hint of dignity at the belly (bend over, you bastard, bend over one hundred times every morning and touch the floor, you bastard, or Mrs. Murrell won’t like you, and then where would you be?) and a slightly adenoidal lisp, like too much hot porridge, when he opened the aperture under the beautiful blond mustache.
My mother approached him with that bright stride and her shoulders well back, and stopped right before the Young Executive. The Young Executive put his right arm about her shoulder, and kissed her with the aperture under the beautiful blond mustache, and she seized him by the sleeve and drew him over toward me, and he said, “Well, well, old boy, it’s fine to see you. How’s trick, how’s the old politician?”
“Fine,” I said, “but I’m not a politician, I’m a hired hand.”
“Oho,” he said, “don’t try to kid me. They say you and the Governor are just like this.” And he held up two not thin, very clean, perfectly manicured fingers for me to admire.
“You don’t know the Governor,” I replied, “for the only thing the Governor is just like this with–” and I held up two not very clean and quite imperfectly manicured fingers–“is the Governor, and now and then God-Almighty when he needs somebody to hold the hog while he cuts its throat.”
“Well, the way he’s going–” Theodore began.
“Sit down, you all,” my mother told us, and we sat down, and took the glasses she handed us. She turned on a light.
I leaned back in my chair, and said “Yes” and said “No,” and looked down the long room, which I knew better than any room in the world and which I always came back to, no matter what I said. I noticed that there was a new piece in it. A tall Sheraton break-front desk, in the place where the kidney desk had been. Well, the kidney desk would be in the attic now, in the second-string museum, while we sat in the first-string museum and while Bowman and Heatherford, Ltd., London, wrote a large figure in the black column of the ledger. There was always a change in the room. When I came home I’d always look around and wonder what it would be, for there had been a long procession of choice examples through that room, spinets, desks, tables, chairs, each more choice that the last, each in turn finding its way to the attic to make way for a new perfection. Well, the room had come a long way from the way I first remembered it, moving toward some ideal perfection which was in my mother’s head, or in the head of a dealer in New Orleans, or New York, or London, and maybe, just before she died, the room would achieve its ideal perfection, and she would sit in it, a trim old lady, with piled-up white hair, and silky skin sagging off a fine jawbone, and blue eyes blinking rapidly, and would take a cup of tea to celebrate the ideal.
The furniture changed, but the people in it changed too. Way back, there had been the thick-set, strong man, not tall, with a shock of tangled black hair on his head and steel-rimmed glasses on his nose and a habit of buttoning his vest up wrong, and a big gold watch-chain, which I liked to pull at. Then he wasn’t there, and my mother pressed my head against her breast and said, “Your Daddy isn’t coming back any more, Son.”
“Why did he go away?”
“Because he didn’t love Mother. That’s why he went away.”
“I love you, Mother,” I said, “I’ll love you always.”
“Yes, Son, yes, you love your mother,” she said, and held me tight against her breast.
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