All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [97]
“Yassuh.”
“Where, dammit?” the Boss snapped. “You think I’m asking for my health?”
“Naw, suh, I didn’t think nuthin, I–”
“Where?” the Boss demanded in a tone to set the chandelier tingling.
After the first paralysis, the lips began to work in the black face. In the beginning without effect. Then a sound was detectable. “Upstairs–she done gone upstairs–I reckin she done gone to bed–she–”
The Boss had headed up the stairs.
He came back almost immediately, walked past me without a word, and back to the library. I trailed along. He flung himself down on the big leather couch, heaved his feet off the floor to the leather, and said, “Shut the God-damned door.”
I shut the door, he leaned back on the cushions, at about a thirty-degree angle from horizontal, and glumly studied his knuckles. “You would have thought she might wait up for me tonight,” he said finally, still studying the knuckles. Then, looking at me, “She’s gone to bed. Gone to bed and locked her door. Said she had a headache. I go upstairs and there id Tom sitting in the room across from her room doing his schoolwork. Before I lay hand to the knob of her door, he comes out and says, ‘She don’t want to be bothered.’ Like I was a delivery boy. ‘I’m not going to bother her,’ I said to him, ‘I’m just going to tell her what happened.’ He looked at me and said, ‘She’s got a headache, and she don’t want to be bothered.’ ” He hesitated, looked at the knuckles again, then back to me, and said with a hint of defensiveness in his tone, “All I was going to do was tell her how it came out tonight.”
“She wanted you to throw Byram to the wolves,” I said. “Did she want you to throw yourself to the wolves?”
“I don’t know what the hell she wants,” he said. “I don’t know what the hell any of ’em want. A man can’t tell. But you can tell this, if any man tried to run things the way they want him to half the time, he’d end up sleeping on the bare ground. And how would she like that?”
“I imagine Lucy could take it,” I said.
“Lucy–” he said, and looked sort of surprised, as though I had introduced a new topic in the conversation. Then I recollected that Lucy’s name hadn’t been mentioned. Sure, he had been talking about Lucy Stark, he knew that and I knew that. But as soon as the name Lucy was mentioned, to take the place of that she, somehow it was different. It was as though she had walked into the room, and looked at us.
“Lucy–” he repeated. Then, “All right–Lucy. She could take it. Lucy could sleep on the bare ground, and eat red beans, but it wouldn’t change the world a damned bit. But can Lucy understand that? No, Lucy cannot.” He was, apparently, , taking a relish in using the name now, in saying Lucy instead of She, as though he proved something about something, or about her, or about himself, by saying it, by being able to say it. “Lucy,” he was saying, “she could sleep on the bare ground. And that’s exactly what she’s going to raise Tom to do, too, if she has her way. She’d have him so the six-year kids will be plugging him with nigger-shooters, and then no bothering to run. He’s a good stout boy–plays a good game of football, bet he makes the team when he gets to college–but she’s going to ruin him. Make him a sissy. Looks like I say a word to the boy and you can just see her face freeze. I called up here tonight to get Tom to come down and see the crowd. Was going to send Sugar-Boy to get him because I wasn’t going to have time to get home. But would she let him go? No, sir. Said he had to stay home and study. Study,” he said. Then, “Didn’t want him down there, that was it. Me and the crowd.”
“Take it easy,” I said. “That’s the way all women treat their kids. Besides, you got to be a big-shot by hitting your books.”
“He’s smart, smart enough without being a sissy,” he said. “He makes good grades in school, and, by God, he better. Sure, I want him to study. And he better, but what I don’t get is–”
There was a racket out in the hall, voice, then a knock at the door.
“See who it is,” the Boss said.
I opened the door and in stormed the familiar faces, somewhat