Angels Everywhere - Debbie Macomber [48]
When they did finally ease away from each other, neither of them seemed to know what to say.
Slowly, Monica raised her eyes to his. His gaze revealed the extent of his confusion. The same bewilderment, the same questions, the same doubts.
Monica had no idea how long they stared. The air crackled with static electricity, with sexual tension.
“You better get inside,” he said, and his voice sounded as if it were coming from the bottom of a deep well.
She nodded and turned away from him. Her hand was on the car door when he spoke again.
“Will the choir be downtown again any time soon?” he asked brusquely.
Monica wasn’t so dense not to know what he wanted. He was asking to see her again. She shook her head and not daring to look at him, she said, “I was planning to do some Christmas shopping, though.”
“When?”
The question shouldn’t have been so difficult. Her plans had been nebulous at best. Sometime over the next weekend, but that seemed far too long to wait to see Chet again. A whole week was out of the question.
“Monday night,” she said, still not looking at him. “Around six.” Not waiting for a sign of confirmation from him, she hurriedly climbed out of the car. Walking as fast as she could, she rushed toward the house, not looking back until she reached her front porch. Only then did she chance a look over her shoulder.
Chet was parked in the same spot, she noted, waiting for her to make it safely inside the house.
Nine
Just when everything was straight in her mind, this had to happen, Jody mused as she drove home from work Tuesday afternoon. The snow that had taken Seattle by surprise on Sunday had melted away Monday morning to a dirty slush that filled the side streets.
Jody’s route from the house to the office had been traveled so often she could almost do it blind. She avoided the busy intersections by taking a side street that led her past Providence Hospital.
For reasons she couldn’t explain even to herself, she pulled into the hospital parking lot and climbed out of her car. Glen had asked to take Timmy and her out for pizza Thursday evening, and she’d put him off, claiming she had to check her schedule. He’d seemed surprised and disappointed, but he hadn’t questioned her further.
Timmy claimed he didn’t want another father, not now, not after he’d carefully gone through Jeff’s items. For the first time his natural father was real to him. It didn’t seem right to start another relationship now.
The nativity scene had been up for several days and she’d driven past it for the last seven years without ever stopping. Now seemed the perfect time. Now seemed the worst possible moment.
She walked over and stood before the manger scene, and breathed in the serenity.
“Jeff,” she whispered, “help me.” She didn’t honestly expect him to hear her, nor did she believe it was possible for him to respond to her despondent prayer. Yet she reached out to him, because she wasn’t sure which way to turn.
“You’d like Glen,” she whispered. “He’s the kind of man you would have called a friend.”
The only sounds that returned to her were from the traffic in the streets.
This wasn’t helping, Jody realized. Nor was it hurting. She took a few more minutes to soak in whatever comfort she could before returning to the car.
Timmy was waiting for her. Every day she called the baby-sitter when she left the office and Timmy walked down the block, unlocked the house, and was there when she arrived home a few minutes later. It made him feel less of a kid and more of a young adult. Less of a Timmy and more of a Tim.
The lights shone from the windows as she pulled into the driveway. Timmy was in the family room, the Sega football game blaring from the television screen.
“Glen called,” he told her when she joined him.
“Did you bring in the mail?”
“It’s on the counter. Nothing interesting, just bills.”
Jody sorted through the small stack, disappointed not to receive so much as a single Christmas card. Her own had yet to be mailed.
“Are you going