Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter Colletion_ Books 11-15 - Laurell K. Hamilton [1001]
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PAIN, PAIN, AND lights stabbing into my eyes. Voices: “I’ve got a pulse!” “Anita, Anita, can you hear me!” I wanted to say yes but I couldn’t remember where my mouth was, or how to use it. Darkness again, then pain shot through the dark again. I came to, my body convulsing on a gurney. There were people all around me. I should have known one of them, but I couldn’t remember who she was, only that I should have remembered who she was. My chest hurt. I smelled burning, something was burning. I saw those little flat paddles I’d had used once before on my chest. I realized I was what was burning. The thought didn’t mean much to me. I wasn’t afraid, or even excited. Nothing seemed real. Even the pain in my chest was fading. The world started going gray and soft around the edges.
Someone slapped me, hard, across the face. The world was real again. I blinked up into the face of the woman I should have known, and didn’t. She yelled my name, “Anita, Anita, stay with us, damn it!”
Everything went soft again; the gray ate the world like mist. Someone hit me again. I blinked up into the woman’s face again. “Don’t you die on me, damn it!” She hit me again, and the world hadn’t even gone gray.
I knew her now. Doc Lillian. I tried to say, Stop hitting me, but I couldn’t seem to figure out how to say the words. I did my best to frown up at her, though.
A man’s voice said, “She’s stable.”
Lillian smiled down at me. “You’re breathing for three, Anita. If you keep breathing, they won’t die.”
I didn’t know what she meant. I wanted to ask, Who won’t die? Then something cold and liquid seemed to flow through my veins. I’d had something like it before, and my last thought before a different kind of darkness took me was, why was Lillian giving me morphine?
I dreamed, or maybe I didn’t. But if it was heaven, it was too scary, and if it was hell, it wasn’t quite scary enough. I was at a ball, everyone in glittering clothes, centuries before I was born. Then the first couple turned to me, and they were masked. Everyone was wearing the Harlequin’s white masks. I stumbled back from the dancers and found that I was wearing a silver-and-white dress that was too wide to be graceful, and too tight through the ribs to let me breathe well. One of the couples bumped me and my heart was suddenly in my throat. My chest was tight and tighter, as if some huge fist were crushing my ribs. I fell to my knees and the dancers moved wide around me in a spill of skirts and petticoats. Their dresses brushed me as they whirled faceless around me.
A voice came to the dream, Belle Morte’s purring contralto: “Ma petite, you are dying.”
The hem of a crimson dress was at my hands. She knelt beside me. She was still the brunette beauty who had nearly conquered all of Europe once. All that dark hair piled atop her head, leaving her neck in that pale, white curve that we’d always loved. We…I tried to feel the rest of that we, but where Jean-Claude should have been was awful blankness.
She leaned over me as I fell to the floor. “He is almost gone, our Jean-Claude,” she said. Her amber-brown eyes didn’t seem worried. She was simply making an observation. “Why do you not ask for my help, ma petite?”
I wanted to say, Why would you help us? but there was no air to say anything. My spine tried to bow in the tightness of the corset, as I gasped like a fish left to die on the shore.
“Oh,” she said, and with a flick of her will the dream changed. We were in her bedroom, on her huge four-poster bed. She knelt above me, with a huge knife in her hand. The world was going gray. I wasn’t even afraid.
My body jerked, the corset gave, and I could suddenly breathe a little better. My chest still hurt, and I breathed too shallowly, but I could breathe. I looked down to find that she had cut the bodice of the dress all the way through the corset, so that there was a line of bare skin from