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“What do I tell Peter about the injection?”

I shook my head. “I can’t make that call. I won’t make that call.” I looked at him, studied a face that didn’t have the cheerfulness of Ted, or the coldness of Edward. There was real anguish there, guilt maybe. Since I thought he’d been foolish to bring Peter into this mess, I couldn’t help him. Peter hadn’t been ready for this much action. The shame of it was that in a few years he might have been.

“You’re thinking I was wrong to bring him, that he wasn’t ready.”

“Hey, I told you that when I saw him. You don’t have to read my mind, Edward. I’ll usually tell you what I think.”

“Okay, what do you think?”

“Well, shit,” I said, and sighed. “Fine, fine. Of course you shouldn’t have brought him. I was impressed with him in the middle of the fight. He held his ground. He remembered his training. In a few years, if he wants to follow in his father’s footsteps, then fine. But he needs a few more years of practice and training. He needs a little seasoning before you throw him to the wolves again.”

Edward nodded. “I was weak, I’ve never been weak before, Anita. Donna, Becca, and Peter, they make me weak. They make me back down. They make me flinch.”

“They don’t make you do anything, Edward. Your reaction to them, your feelings for them, has changed you.”

“I’m not sure I like the change.”

I sighed again. “I know the feeling.”

“I let you down.”

“I didn’t mean that.” I lay back down on the bed. Sitting up didn’t hurt, but it didn’t exactly feel good either. “What I meant was that loving people changes you. It’s changed me, too. I’m softer in some ways, harder in others. I haven’t compromised myself as much as you have.”

“What do you mean by that?”

“I’m not trying to live with someone who doesn’t know who and what I am. I’m not driving an eight-year-old to ballet class.”

“My schedule’s easier to move around than Donna’s.”

“I know. She runs her own metaphysical store. I remember, but that’s not the point, Edward. The point is that I’m not trying to live a normal life. I’m not even trying to pretend that what I do, and what I am, is normal.”

“If you had kids, you’d have to try.”

I nodded. “The pregnancy scare last month made me have to look at that. I don’t see myself ever getting pregnant on purpose. If it happens accidentally we’ll deal, but my life doesn’t work with babies.”

“You’re saying mine doesn’t either.” He sounded sad, and I hadn’t expected that.

“No, I mean, I don’t know. It doesn’t work for me because I’m the girl. I’m the one pregnant, and, God forbid, nursing. Sheer biology makes it harder for me to combine gunplay and kids.”

“I can’t marry Donna, can I?”

The voice in my head screamed, Nooo, you can’t. But out loud I said, “Again, I can’t answer that. Hell, Edward, I have enough trouble with my own life, I can’t run yours.”

He gave me a look; it was an Edward look, but there was something in the eyes, something that wasn’t cold, no, it was definitely warm, hot even. I watched the force of personality that could kill gather in his eyes. But what was it gathering for?

“Edward,” I said, softly, “don’t do anything right now that you’ll regret later.”

“We kill the vampire that caused this,” he said.

“Well, of course,” I said. “I meant don’t make any hasty decisions about Donna and the kids. I don’t know much, but I do know that if Peter does turn furry they’ll need you more than ever.”

“If he does turn furry, can I bring him up here to talk to your friends?”

“Yes, of course.”

He nodded. He looked at me, his eyes softening a little. “I know you think I should leave Donna and the kids. You’ve always thought it was a bad idea.”

“Maybe, but you love them, and they love you. Love’s hard to come by, Edward; you should never throw it away just because it’s a bad idea.”

He laughed. “That made no sense at all.”

“I’m trying here; what I meant to say was that you all love each other. If you can just make Peter stay home long enough to finish his