Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter Colletion_ Books 11-15 - Laurell K. Hamilton [155]
I sat on the bed, watching them, waiting for the answer. In a way I was an audience, in a way I wasn’t there at all.
“There were moments when I longed for death.”
Jean-Claude turned away. Asher touched his arm, fingertips on the velvet. That small touch seemed to freeze Jean-Claude. If he was breathing, I couldn’t see it. “Last night was not one of those moments.”
They stared at each other. Asher’s fingertips barely touching Jean-Claude’s arm. There was so much between them, centuries of pain and love and hate. It was as if all of it boiled in the air, almost visible in the flickering light. I wanted to say kiss and make up, but I knew they wouldn’t. I don’t know what issues they had about each other, but they seemed unable to do things like that without their Julianna. She’d been the bridge between them. The thing that allowed them to love each other. Without her, they stood on the brink of the abyss and gazed at each other, separated by a chasm that neither knew how to cross.
I could never be Julianna. I had too many memories of her. For God’s sake she’d done embroidery. She’d been gentle and kind and everything I didn’t think I was. But there was one thing I might be able to do.
I slid off the bed, and went first to Asher, because I didn’t want to set him off again. I went on tiptoe, and he had to bend down a little for me to kiss him, but he didn’t fight me. I held his face in my hands like it was a cup carved of some delicate stone, something that would shatter if you abused it. I kissed him softly, drinking from that cup as the sacred gift it was. I went to Jean-Claude with the taste of Asher still on my lips. I cupped his face as I had held Asher’s, and I kissed him. He barely moved under my mouth.
I stood back from the two of them. “Now, we’ve kissed and made up. We need to get me dressed, and we need to talk before the banquet.”
Jean-Claude’s voice came out low and hoarse, as if he wasn’t breathing well. “Talk of what, ma petite?”
“The Mother of All Darkness.”
“Jason spoke of her, too, but I hoped he was misunderstanding.”
“It cannot be the Sweet Mother,” Asher said, “she has not woken in a millennium.”
“She’s not awake, Asher, but she’s moving around like a restless sleeper.”
The two men looked at each other. It was Asher who said, “I would put aside petty differences until we are at the bottom of this most grave mystery.”
“What petty differences?” I asked.
“Whether we are to be a ménage à trois, or no.”
I shook my head. “I adore you, Asher, but I don’t have enough energy left to shovel this much emotional shit. Do you realize that you have more hang-ups about personal intimacy than I do?”
He opened his mouth, closed it, then gave that Gallic shrug.
“We’re actually well-matched in a I-haven’t-beaten-you-to-death-yet, sort of way. But for now, let’s both try to put our personal mess aside. Okay, please.”
He gave a graceful bow. “As my lady commands, so shall I obey.”
“For as long as it suits you,” I said.
He laughed then, and it was a good laugh, a sound that glided down my skin and jerked at things low in my body. It brought a sigh from my lips. “Now, where are my clothes for this little disaster tonight?”
43
I HAD, OF course, complained about my clothes. The black velvet and blue silk seemed to be offering my breasts up like pale ripe fruits. The colors emphasized the near translucence of my skin with the undertone of blue highlights. But I knew what the blue highlights really were—blood. Blue blood inside my veins that would burst red when oxygen hit it.
Stephen had done my hair and makeup. He’d done them before, for these little get-togethers. He regularly did it for the other strippers at Guilty Pleasures. I had let him put my hair in a pile of loose curls on top of my head, so that my neck looked white and bare. Asher’s bite marks stood out starkly