Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter Colletion_ Books 11-15 - Laurell K. Hamilton [684]
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IT TOOK ABOUT an hour to get everyone separated to places where they could clean up. Claudia had sent for reinforcements, so that the wrecked living room was nearly a solid wall of black-shirted guards. Werewolves, wererats, and werehyenas, the people we had treaties with for guard work, all stood around while Octavius had hysterics. If he’d had more guards with him, and we’d had less, it could have gotten violent, but when you’re outnumbered, outmuscled, and your master is saying, Let it go, well, Octavius had to eat it. He didn’t like it, neither did Pierce, but Haven, of the Cookie-Monster-blue hair, was voting with Auggie. They both liked us just fine.
Jean-Claude and I lay back in his huge bathtub. My clothes were ruined but I had my knife and gun on the edge of the tub. Nothing else had been salvageable. We’d scrubbed and cleaned, and now were just soaking in the hot water. Auggie had probably already finished in the showers down the hall, but Requiem and Asher were in charge of seeing that our guests didn’t do anything unfortunate. They were both master vampires over four hundred years old, they could handle it. We’d handled everything I wanted to handle for one night.
Jean-Claude lay back against the edge of the tub, and I lay in his arms, the back of my body cradled against the front of his. He trailed his hand down my arm, and hugged me tighter against him. His body was quiet, pressed against my body. I think we’d both had all we could handle for one night.
His voice came lazy, with that edge that sleep can give it. “What are you thinking about, ma petite?”
“If you hadn’t shut the marks down so tight, you might not have to ask.” I snuggled my head into the hollow of his shoulder and chest. “You shut them down as soon as we were finished with Auggie. Why?”
His body tensed against me, even his arms where they were wrapped around me, not so comforting anymore. “Perhaps I was afraid of what you would find in my thoughts.” His voice wasn’t sleepy now, but had that bland emptiness that he used to hide behind.
“What would I have found?” I asked, but I wasn’t cuddling now. Tension is contagious.
“If I had wanted you to know the answer to that question, I would not have shut the marks down.”
I started to protest, but another thought stopped me. With the marks that wide open, it had only been chance that I hadn’t thought of the baby question. Chance and the fact that the ardeur tended to wipe out anything that wasn’t pertinent to the moment. Now the fear came crawling back, tightening my stomach, tensing my muscles. Please, God, don’t let me be pregnant.
“What is wrong, ma petite?” he asked.
I let out a breath that shook around the edges and said, “You know, Jean-Claude, normally I’d push for honesty, but I think I’ve had all the revelations I can handle for one night. It’s okay, whatever you thought, it’s okay.”
“It is okay without your ever knowing what the thought was?” he asked.
I settled back into his arms, willing the hot water and the touch of his body to take away that awful tension. “Yes,” I said, “yes.”
He moved me to the side, holding me in the water, so he could see my face. “Yes, just like that?” His face showed his skepticism.
I stared up into him; his hair was wet and slicked back from his face, so that nothing took away from it. Those eyes a blue as dark as blue could be and hold no touch of black. His lashes thick and black—it had taken me months in his bed to see his upper lashes by candlelight and realize that he had a double row of upper lashes. Him and Elizabeth Taylor. You only saw it if the light was just right, and his head turned just right. Until then, they were just this unbelievable lace around his eyes. I traced the lines and curves of his face, down to the grace of his lips. I let him see in my eyes what I saw, what I felt,