Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter Colletion_ Books 11-15 - Laurell K. Hamilton [719]
I tried putting the watch in the pocket of the robe, but that made me nervous, as though if I couldn’t see the watch I’d screw the time up. I tried sitting on the edge of the tub staring at the second hand, but that made the time go even slower. Now that I was only minutes away from knowing, I wanted to know. No more guesswork. I needed to know, one way or the other. I needed to know.
What I didn’t know was that Micah had set an alarm on the watch. It beeped at me, and scared me. I gave that little eep scream that only girls seem to do.
Claudia knocked on the door. “Anita, you all right?”
“Sorry, alarm startled me. Sorry.” I was already in the middle of the room, opposite the sink. All I had to do was turn around. I had a death grip on the watch. My heart was beating so hard I was sure that everyone outside the door could hear it. I didn’t want to look. I wanted to know, and I didn’t want to know. I wanted to have someone else look. Micah would do it, or Nathaniel. God, I was being so cowardly, and stupid, as if simply not looking would make it not true. But I had to look, I had to.
I took those last few steps to the sink, and looked down. Two lines, two fucking lines. The world swam, and I had to grab on to the sink edge to keep from sliding to one side. All I could hear was my own blood roaring in my ears. I was not going to faint, damn it. I was not going to faint.
I lowered myself to my knees, still clinging to the cabinet edges. I put my face against my arm, and waited for the dizziness to pass. Fuck.
When I thought I could do it without feeling worse, I raised my head up. The room didn’t swim. Good. But I wasn’t at all sure I trusted myself to walk to the door. I hated it, but apparently my body had decided that it just wasn’t working yet. I could either sit on the floor until I felt less weak-legged, or I could yell for help.
I knew the men were almost as tense about it as I was, so waiting seemed cruel, or maybe it wasn’t cruel. They had a few minutes more of believing the worst hadn’t happened. I hated to treat the miracle of life like a disaster but that’s how it felt.
I finally called, in a voice that almost sounded like mine, “Claudia.”
She tapped the door, and said, “Do you want me in there?”
“Yes,” I said.
She came through, and one look at me on the floor made her close the door behind her. She walked to me, looked down at the test, and said with real feeling, “Well, shit.”
“Yeah,” I said.
“Who do you want to tell first?”
I shook my head and leaned back against the cabinets. “No one.”
She gave me a look.
“I can’t call them in one at a time; Richard will get pissed, or someone else will. I have to go out to them.”
She gazed around the room. “They’d all fit in here, barely.”
I tucked my knees up tight and held on. “Jesus, Claudia. Jesus.”
She knelt beside me. Her face was so sympathetic that I had to look away. My eyes were starting to burn, my throat to tighten. “Help me do this before I start to cry.”
“What can I do to help?” she asked.
“Help me stand.”
She took my offered hand and raised me effortlessly to my feet. She kept a hand on my elbow to steady me, as if she knew I needed it. I didn’t argue. We made it to the door that way, then I took my arm back, and opened the door.
I thought I had my face under control, but I must have been wrong, because they all reacted to it. Only Jean-Claude and Asher showed nothing, but their lack of reaction was reaction enough.
Micah and Richard reached me first, at almost the same time. They looked at each other, and Micah bowed out, let the other man touch me first. It was good of him, but I’d have preferred to hug him, since I was almost certain Richard would say something to make me feel worse.
He half-hugged me, so he could hold me, and still