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He spoke against my skin, “Let’s go to bed, Anita.”

I nodded, still pressed against him.

I felt his mouth move in a smile against my skin. I knew exactly the feel of it, which meant I must make him smile with his mouth pressed to me a lot. I guess I did.

He drew away and started unfastening his collar. He had a tie bar to remove. I stood there and watched him begin to reveal his tanned upper body, but instead of enjoying the show, I felt the anxiety creep back.

I touched Micah’s arm, stopped him in the middle of undoing one of his cuff links. “Stop for a minute.” He turned puzzled eyes to me.

“You’re nervous again,” Nathaniel said. “Why?”

I shook my head, then looked across the bed. Jean-Claude was still across the bed, but he was leaning on one of the big wooden posts. His arms entwined around it as he watched us. His face was neutral, but I’d been further into his head tonight than ever, in one special area.

“Shit,” I said.

“What?” Micah and Nathaniel asked together.

“I know what’s wrong.”

They both looked at me, but it was Jean-Claude that I looked at. “It’s you,” I said.

“I have seen your men nude before,” he said in that pleasant neutral voice.

“We’ve been in bed all naked and sweaty, Anita,” Nathaniel said.

“Yes, but you’ve never had sex with him. I had sex with him.”

“Jean-Claude has fed off me, Anita,” Micah said, “has had more of my blood than yours.”

I looked at Micah. “Are you saying having him take blood is the same thing as having sex with him?”

He shrugged, and I watched his face shut down to the look he wore when he wasn’t certain what look I wanted. “I’ve had sex that didn’t feel as good as Jean-Claude’s feedings.”

“Then you were doing the sex wrong,” I said.

He smiled. “I was young; I got better.”

“Yes, you did,” I said, and smiled back.

He kissed me, then moved back and gave me a searching look. He moved past me to put the first cufflink on the bedside table. He started on the other sleeve, his back to me. I glanced up and found that I wasn’t the only one watching him.

Jean-Claude’s neutral, beautiful face watched us all. We had been naked and sweaty in a bed together. Hell, some nights the pile had included Asher and Jason. It just depended on who had fed whom last. So why was I suddenly bothered by Jean-Claude watching Micah take off his shirt?

I suddenly had a smart idea. I don’t have that many of them, not about my own emotional life anyway. “I know what’s wrong,” I said again.

They all looked at me. I touched Micah’s naked back, but looked at Jean-Claude. “It was what we did tonight with Augustine.”

Jean-Claude sat on the corner of the bed, one arm still wrapped around the bedpost. “What exactly are you referring to, ma petite? We did many things with Augustine tonight.”

“I know that everyone thinks we’re all snogging each other’s brains out, but tonight was the first time I’d ever seen two men kiss. I’ve never even seen someone do…” I faltered. God, was I still such a baby? No, damn it, I was a grown-up. “I’ve never seen anal sex before, let alone between two men. Let alone between my lover and a stranger.” I took in a big breath and let it out, and went to the edge of the bed, a little closer to Jean-Claude. “Am I making any sense?”

“You were disturbed by what you saw,” he said.

“Wait,” Nathaniel said. The wait turned me to him. He was propped up on the pillows, the sheet forgotten in his lap, so that he was barely covered at all, but his face showed he wasn’t even thinking about it. “How did you feel when Jean-Claude kissed Auggie?”

I opened my mouth, then closed it, because I wasn’t sure what the answer was. How had I felt? “I didn’t mind it. It was…interesting.” That wasn’t true. I looked down at the bedspread and said, “No, I…it was interesting.”

“Interesting bad, or interesting good?” Nathaniel said.

Without looking up, I answered, “Good.”

Someone sighed, and I wasn’t sure which of them had done it. I looked up, slowly, and no one was looking at me like I’d said something awful. I don’t know why I thought anyone