Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter Colletion_ Books 6-10 - Laurell K. Hamilton [1039]
“I haven’t changed yet, Richard, we don’t know for sure.”
“Anita,” he said softly, and I knew he was chiding me. Maybe it was a case of the lady protesting too much, but still . . .
“I’m still human, Richard, I haven’t changed yet.”
He leaned over me, his hair gliding around my face as he kissed me gently on the cheek. “Even before the first full moon, we can take more damage. The change has already begun, Anita.”
I pushed against his chest until he drew back enough for me to see his face. “You’ve always been holding back, haven’t you?”
“Yes,” he said.
I searched his face and saw such need in his eyes, and I knew why he’d been so angry at Gregory. He’d said that he almost regretted not making me his lupa in truth, now that he’d seen me be Nimir-Ra, but it was more than that. I looked into his brown eyes in the spill of early morning light and knew that he’d wanted me to be what he was, even though he hated it, that at some level he’d been tempted to make me his lupa for real. Somewhere in the lovemaking where he had to be so careful, he’d thought of it, more than once. It was there in eyes, his face. He started to look away as if he could feel that I saw it all, but he made himself look back, meet my gaze. He was almost defiant.
“How careful have you been of me, Richard?”
He did look away then, using his hair as a shield. I reached through that thick hair to touch his face, to turn him to look at me. “Richard, how careful have you been of me?”
There was something close to pain in his eyes. He whispered, “Very.”
I held his face between my hands. “You don’t have to be careful anymore.”
A look of soft wonderment crossed his face, and he bent his head down, and we kissed, kissed as we had earlier, propping, exploring, taking turns at thrusting into each other. He drew slowly back from the kiss, and I felt the tip of him touch my opening. I stared down the length of our bodies so I could watch as his body flexed above me, and he thrust himself inside me harder this time, quicker. It brought my breath in a soundless scream.
“Anita . . .”
I opened my eyes, not realizing I’d closed them. I gazed up at him. “Don’t be careful anymore, Richard, don’t be careful.”
He smiled, gave me a quick kiss, then he was back, arched above me, and this time he didn’t stop. He thrust every inch of himself into me as hard and as fast as he could. The sound of flesh into flesh became a constant sound, a wet hammering. I realized it hadn’t been just his size that made him careful, but his strength. He could have bench-pressed the bed we lay on, and that strength lay not just in his arms, or back, but in his legs, his thighs, in the body he was pressing inside me, over and over again. For the first time ever, I began to appreciate the full power of him.
I’d felt the strength in his hands, his arms, when he held me, but it was nothing to this. He made of our bodies one body, one pounding, sweating, soaking, drenching piece of flesh. I was vaguely aware that it did hurt, that I was bruising, and I didn’t care.
I called out his name as my body tightened around his, squeezing, and I spasmed underneath him, body slamming against the bed, not from Richard’s thrusts, but from the power of the orgasm itself; screams spilled from my throat as my body rocked underneath him. It felt good, better than almost anything, but it was almost violence, almost pain, almost frightening. Somewhere in the midst of it all I was aware that he came, too. He screamed my name, but held his place, while I continued to writhe and fight underneath him. It wasn’t until I lay quiet that he allowed himself to collapse on top of me, slightly to one side, so my face wouldn’t be pressed into his chest.
We lay in a sweating, breathless heap, waiting for our hearts to slow enough to speak. He found his voice first. “Thank you, thank you for trusting me.”
I laughed. “You’re thanking me.” I raised his hand to my mouth and kissed the palm, then rested