Anna Dressed in Blood - Kendare Blake [98]
I’m remembering the words of the Obeahman: that my mind would bleed out my ears or something. I hope that wasn’t literal.
My mom sits on the couch near my feet. Her hand is on my shin and she’s rubbing it absently. She still wants to run. Every one of her mom-instincts says to swaddle me up and take off. But she’s not just any mom. She’s my mom. So she sits, and gets ready to fight alongside.
“I’m sorry about your cat,” I say.
“He was our cat,” she replies. “I’m sorry too.”
“He tried to warn us,” I say. “I should have listened to the little hairball.” I put down the water bottle. “I really am sorry, Mom. I’m going to miss him.”
She nods.
“I want you to go upstairs before anything starts,” I say. She nods again. She knows I can’t focus if I’m worried about her.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” she asks. “That you were searching him out all these years? That you were planning to go after him?”
“I didn’t want you to worry,” I say. I feel sort of stupid. “See how well it all turned out?”
She brushes my hair out of my eyes. She hates it that I let it hang in my face all the time. A concerned tension comes into her face and she looks at me closer.
“What?” I ask.
“Your eyes are yellow.” I think she’s going to cry again. From another room, I hear Morfran swear. “It’s your liver,” my mom says softly. “And maybe your kidneys. They’re failing.”
Well, that explains the liquefying feeling in my side.
We’re alone in the living room. Everyone else has sort of scattered off to their respective corners. I suppose everyone’s doing some thinking, maybe saying some prayers. Hopefully Thomas and Carmel are making out in a closet. Outside, a flash of electricity catches my eye.
“Isn’t it a little late in the season for lightning?” I ask.
Morfran answers from where he’s hovering in the door of the kitchen. “It isn’t just lightning. I think our boy is working up some energy.”
“We should do the summoning spell,” my mom says.
“I’ll go find Thomas.” I heave myself off the sofa and make my way upstairs quietly. At the top, Carmel’s voice is coming from inside one of the old guest rooms.
“I don’t know what I’m doing here,” she says, and her voice is scared, but also kind of snarky.
“What do you mean?” Thomas answers.
“Come on. I’m the freaking Prom Queen. Cas is like Buffy the Vampire Slayer, you, your grandpa, and his mom are all witches or wizards or whatever, and Anna is … Anna. What am I doing here? What use am I?”
“Don’t you remember?” Thomas asks. “You’re the voice of reason. You think of the things we forget about.”
“Yeah. And I think I’m going to get myself killed. Just me and my aluminum bat.”
“You’re not. You won’t. Nothing’s going to happen to you, Carmel.”
Their voices drop lower. I feel like some pervert eavesdropper. I’m not going to interrupt them. Mom and Morfran can do the spells on their own. Let Thomas have this moment. So I back softly down the stairs and head outside.
I wonder what things will be like after this is over. Assuming we all make it through, what’s going to happen? Will everything go back to the way it was? Will Carmel eventually forget about this adventurous time with us? Will she shun Thomas and go back to being the center of SWC? She wouldn’t do that, would she? I mean, she did just compare me to Buffy the Vampire Slayer. My opinion of her isn’t the highest right now.
When I step out onto the porch, tugging my jacket tighter, I see Anna sitting on the railing with one leg up. She