Atlas Shrugged - Ayn Rand [261]
“Then you’ll understand me if I say that I’d like you to give that bracelet back to me.”
“I understand you. But I will not give it back.”
Lillian let a moment pass, as if to let them both acknowledge the meaning of their silence. For once, she held Dagny’s glance without smiling. “What do you expect me to think, Miss Taggart?”
“Anything you wish.”
“What is your motive?”
“You knew my motive when you gave me the bracelet.”
Lillian glanced at Rearden. His face was expressionless; she saw no reaction, no hint of intention to help her or stop her, nothing but an attentiveness that made her feel as if she were standing in a spotlight.
Her smile came back, as a protective shield, an amused, patronizing smile, intended to convert the subject into a drawing-room issue again. “I’m sure, Miss Taggart, that you realize how enormously improper this is.”
“No.”
“But surely you know that you are taking a dangerous and ugly risk.”
“No.”
“You do not take into consideration the possibility of being ... misunderstood?”
“No.”
Lillian shook her head in smiling reproach. “Miss Taggart, don’t you think that this is a case where one cannot afford to indulge in abstract theory, but must consider practical reality?”
Dagny would not smile. “I have never understood what is meant by a statement of that kind.”
“I mean that your attitude may be highly idealistic—as I am sure it is—but, unfortunately, most people do not share your lofty frame of mind and will misinterpret your action in the one manner which would be most abhorrent to you.”
“Then the responsibility and the risk will be theirs, not mine.”
“I admire your ... no, I must not say ‘innocence,’ but shall I say ‘purity?’ You have never thought of it, I’m sure, but life is not as straight and logical as ... as a railroad track. It is regrettable, but possible, that your high intentions may lead people to suspect things which ... well, which I’m sure you know to be of a sordid and scandalous nature.”
Dagny was looking straight at her. “I don’t.”
“But you cannot ignore that possibility.”
“I do.” Dagny turned to go.
“Oh, but should you wish to evade a discussion if you have nothing to hide?” Dagny stopped. “And if your brilliant—and reckless—courage permits you to gamble with your reputation, should you ignore the danger to Mr. Rearden?”
Dagny asked slowly, “What is the danger to Mr. Rearden?”
“I’m sure you understand me.”
“I don’t.”
“Oh, but surely it isn’t necessary to be more explicit.”
“It is—if you wish to continue this discussion.”
Lillian’s eyes went to Rearden’s face, searching for some sign to help her decide whether to continue or to stop. He would not help her.
“Miss Taggart,” she said, “I am not your equal in philosophical altitude. I am only an average wife. Please give me that bracelet—if you do not wish me to think what I might think and what you wouldn’t want me to name.”
“Mrs. Rearden, is this the manner and place in which you choose to suggest that I am sleeping with your husband?”
“Certainly not!” The cry was immediate; it had a sound of panic and the quality of an automatic reflex, like the jerk of withdrawal of a pickpocket’s hand caught in action. She added, with an angry, nervous chuckle, in a tone of sarcasm and sincerity that confessed a reluctant admission of her actual opinion, “That would be the possibility farthest from my mind.”
“Then you will please apologize to Miss Taggart,” said Rearden.
Dagny caught her breath, cutting off all but the faint echo of a gasp. They both whirled to him. Lillian saw nothing in his face; Dagny saw torture.
“It isn’t necessary, Hank,” she said.
“It is—for me,” he answered coldly, not looking at her; he was looking at Lillian in the manner of a command that could not be disobeyed.
Lillian studied his face with mild astonishment, but without anxiety or anger, like a person confronted by a puzzle of no significance. “But of course,” she said complaisantly, her voice smooth and confident again. “Please accept my apology, Miss Taggart, if I gave you the impression that I suspected the existence