Ayn Rand and the World She Made - Anne C. Heller [324]
“our relationship became”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 323.
The second turning point: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 325.
“wheeling-dealing” … “intangible pleasure”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, pp. 312, 339.
general rubric of role-playing: TPOARC, RPJ, March 20, 1968, p. 295.
Inexplicably, she didn’t question: TPOARC, RPJ, January 30, 1968, pp. 280–81.
“notary public” soul: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 328.
“a sexual urge”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 8, 1968, p. 351.
In mid-July: MYWAR, p. 339; TPOAR, p. 342.
“I know what this must mean to you”: TPOAR, p. 342.
So did all communication with Nathaniel: MYWAR, p. 341.
cut Branden out of her will: “Affidavit of Services,” Probate Proceedings, Will of Alice O’Connor, a.k.a. Ayn Rand, New York County Surrogates Court, November 16, 1983, p. 2.
“I intend you to be my heir”: TPOAR, p. 343.
“afraid to say it”: Author interview with JMB and Dr. Allan Blumenthal, March 3, 2004.
“How could [Ayn] have failed”: TPOAR, p. 344.
“Get him down here”: TPOAR, pp. 345–46.
backstairs romance: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 344.
“even if I were eighty years old”: Author interview with NB, August 10, 2004. That AR was sexually without age appears originally to have been his idea, as when he told her, “You will always be a sexual being” and “You have no equals at any age;” TPOAR, p. 346.
371 As she spoke, her eyes were glaring: TPOAR, p. 346.
more effectively than her enemies: MYWAR, p. 343.
“If you have an ounce of morality”: MYWAR, p. 345; TPOAR, p. 347; also, cited in an unpublished letter from Florence Hirschfeld to AR, early 1969, courtesy of Florence Hirschfeld.
“I believe that he has been attempting to cure himself”: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, pp. 347–48.
“To say ‘I love you’ “: TF, p. 388.
out of weakness: TPOARC, RPJ, July 4, 1968, p. 320.
the period that followed: The final confrontation with NB took place three days before the opening of the 1968 Democratic National Convention in Chicago and as Soviet Russia began to crush the Prague Spring movement for individual liberty in Czechoslovakia.
She gave no hint of her sexual history: TPOAR, p. 349.
“I have broken with Nathan”: OHP, Hank and Erika Holzer, February 9, 2006.
as her heir apparent: “To Whom It May Concern,” p. 453.
She also either encouraged: Nathaniel Branden and Barbara Branden, “In Answer to Ayn Rand,” October 1968, independently published and distributed; “To Whom It May Concern,” p. 348.
that he cede his half interest: “In Answer to Ayn Rand;” “To Whom It May Concern,” p. 453.
On August 28, Branden held an NBI staff meeting: MYWAR, p. 350.
According to his nephew, Jonathan Hirschfeld: Author interview with Jonathan Hirschfeld, August 26, 2006.
beginning the next day: Author interview with NB, May 5, 2004.
“We were like mother and father figures”: Author interview with NB, May 5, 2004.
Rumors “spread like wildfire”: MYWAR, p. 351.
Barbara and Wilfred Schwartz: TPOAR, p. 350.
“I am not a teacher”: “To Whom It May Concern,” p. 454.
To Barbara, she said, “I won’t”: TPOAR, p. 350.
a sense of liberation: Author interview with BB, June 2, 2008.
She swore that she would not merely write: TPOAR, p. 351.
“I never wanted”: “To Whom It May Concern,” p. 454.
On September 3: TPOAR, p. 351.
The literary agency declined to participate: MYWAR, p. 355.
“What happened to property rights?”: MYWAR, p. 357.
A year later, Ed Nash: TPOAR, p. 349.
Rand also kept her threat: TPOARC, p. 122, based on copies of AR’s unpublished letters in the Rand archive at ARI.
According to Holzer’s recollection: OHP interview with Hank and Erika Holzer, February 9, 2006.
described it differently: “In Answer to Ayn Rand.”
as she would later dismiss the questions: Robert Hessen remembered: “Sometime later that fall [1968], when Leonard began to give lectures, Ayn agreed to participate in the question periods. Nathan had by now published his ‘Answer,’ with its elliptical last line about its being impossible to carry on a romantic relationship given the age difference. And someone said, ‘Is it true, as