Bachelor Unleashed - Brenda Jackson [31]
Dustin had claimed his problem with her had never been in the bedroom, but said her constant travels for her job were to blame for the loneliness that had forced him to seek out other women. He had actually tried to make her feel responsible for his adulterous behavior.
Any other woman probably would have fallen for his pitiful spiel, but she had stopped being Dustin’s fool the day he’d asked her for a divorce. She doubted she would ever forgive him for the hurt and humiliation that he’d caused her.
“I don’t ever want to go through anything like that again,” she heard herself saying.
Xavier’s mouth drew in a tight line. “I can respect that, but what does that have to do with me?”
“A good question,” she murmured softly to herself. He probably didn’t see the connection because, for him, there truly wasn’t one. Nothing about his purpose in seeking her out then and now had changed. He was footloose and fancy-free and intended to stay that way. He shied away from serious relationships, preferring to make his booty calls whenever, wherever and to whomever he desired with no strings attached. He was a man, and he could go through that type of program without any emotional attachments. She’d tried the same but found that she just couldn’t do it. Especially with Xavier.
“What it has to do with you, Xavier, is that I felt the time had come for me to take a step back from our little affair. Eleven months was way too long for me. We were getting too complacent.”
She wanted to express herself in a way where she didn’t come off sounding like a needy woman. God knows she didn’t want that. Since her divorce she had tried not to depend on anyone—especially a man—for her happiness. But with Xavier she had found herself slipping.
When he didn’t say anything, she continued. “That first night you came over we agreed to have a no-strings-attached affair, and I felt we had run our course.”
He nodded. “Have there been any men since me, Farrah?”
His question surprised her. It would be so easy to say it wasn’t any of his business and let him assume there had been others. After all, he’d probably slept with other women since her. Something kept the lie from forming on her lips, however. Instead she said, “No, I’ve been too busy.” That really wasn’t a total lie.
“And I haven’t had another woman since you,” he said in a throaty tone.
His words shocked her; in fact, they left her speechless. He hadn’t had another woman since her? Xavier, the man with a sex drive that never quit? At that moment she couldn’t explain the satisfied pleasure she felt blooming inside of her. Why had he denied himself?
“Seems like we have the same problem, Farrah.”
She pulled herself back into the conversation, trying to tread lightly while all kinds of wicked thoughts flowed through her. “And what problem is that?”
He reached out and rubbed his thumb over her bottom lip. “We need to get unleashed. You need a man to make love to you like I need to make love to a woman. Bad. But I don’t need to make love to any woman, Farrah. I need to make love to you. I so miss hearing you scream.”
More sensations washed over her, wetting her panties, causing every nerve ending in her body to respond to the sensuality in his voice and the heat in his words. She had definitely missed him making her scream as well.
“So you think we need to get unleashed, huh?” she asked in a low tone, while her heartbeat throbbed in her chest.
“Yes, but due to schedule restraints, I’ll just have time to prime you for now.”
Oh, she knew all about his priming methods and just what setting up for that stage of seduction could do to her. They’d never made out in a car before, and just the thought of doing so was downright naughty. But she felt like being naughty tonight. She had been a good girl for a long time and felt the need to sexually unwind. But more than anything, she wanted to scream. She shuddered at