Blood Trust - Eric van Lustbader [139]
“Uh-huh, too nice for you, was he?” She nodded. “I can see how you’d view that as a defect.”
Carson’s lips moved without him saying a word out loud. Then he pinched the bridge of his patrician nose. “The trouble was, I never knew where I stood with Eddy.”
Vera threw back her head and laughed, causing him to whip around as he glared at her.
“What’s so damn funny?”
“Your brother made you insecure. God, I didn’t think anyone could do that to you.”
“You never knew Eddy.”
“And whose fault is that?”
“Well…” Carson stared at his hands. “There was no way I could let you meet him. You understand that.”
“I understand that you had to keep your Main Line connections intact until you acquired enough power on your own.”
He shot her a sharp look. “That’s a pretty cynical way of looking at it.”
“Ours is a cynical world, Daddy.”
He nodded, almost, she thought, ruefully.
“Damn if it isn’t.”
* * *
THEY MET Annika in an open field near the airstrip. The wind was blowing, dragging her hair sideways across her face. Her hands were dug deep in the pockets of her trench coat, a stance like Humphrey Bogart’s in Casablanca.
Jack came halfway toward her, then abruptly stopped. Alli, at his side, broke away and ran pell-mell toward her. Just before she reached her, Annika took her hands out of her pockets. Jack automatically tensed. This was a weird moment. He was half expecting her to have a Sig Sauer in one hand.
Instead, Annika threw her arms wide and enfolded Alli, hugging her tight.
“I can’t believe it,” Alli said. “I’ve missed you so much.”
Annika kissed the top of her head. “Honey, honey, honey,” she crooned.
Then she looked past Alli to where Jack stood. The most peculiar smile broke out across her face, part solemn, part impish, but altogether tentative.
All this time, Thatë, present under Jack’s sufferance, stayed back at the periphery of the field. It was difficult to know what he was looking at, impossible to know what he was thinking.
Alli, though reluctant, knew it was time to walk away. That left Jack and Annika. They were standing twenty feet from each other.
“I was too late with Arjeta and with Billy.” With one hand, she drew her hair off her face. “I found him before the cops did, but there was nothing I could do.”
“You could have called me.”
Her smile changed shape slightly. “And how far would that have gotten me?”
She was right, of course. At that point, he never would have listened to her. He came toward her, aware that his heart was beating painfully hard. He felt a roaring in his ears.
“I’ve seen Edon’s back.”
“Yes, well, where you were, I imagined that might happen. Thank you for saving her and all the rest of them.”
“Why are these three girls so important?”
“They know a secret.”
“Edon doesn’t.”
“No. But Arjeta told Liridona. I went to Washington to find Arjeta, to save her, but I was too late.”
“You want to know the secret.”
“I care about these girls. Deeply.”
“But the secret—”
“Jack, please recall what I told you. Secrets are our only weapon against the forces that seek to manipulate us.”
Jack believed her. No matter that he wanted to believe her, that, like Alli, he needed to believe her. He kept walking until he was just a handsbreadth away from her. He could smell her then, and his heart melted a little bit more.
“Before we go any further…”
“Yes, Jack?”
“I need to know about Senator Berns. I need the whole truth.”
“And nothing but the truth, so help me God?” Her tone was mocking.
He didn’t laugh. “You don’t believe in God.”
“Not after what’s happened to me.”
The sun was shining in her eyes, and he knew that he had dreamed about them. He’d only known that he’d woken in the morning drenched in sweat, sad beyond bearing. He’d put every emotion he possessed on hold, throwing himself into tending to Alli and to his job, which kept changing shape like a chimera. Now he understood his sorrow, and his paralysis. Somewhere inside him, he’d been waiting for this moment; somewhere inside him, he knew it would happen.
“Senator Berns wasn’t one of the good guys, Jack.”
“Meaning?