Blown for Good - Marc Morgan Headley [1]
10. Sea Of Sin
11. I Sometimes Wish I Were Dead
12. Sweetest Perfection
13. Waiting for the Night
14. Surrender
15. It’s No Good
16. Behind the Wheel
17. Monument
18. The Great Outdoors
19. Now, This Is Fun
20. A Pain That I’m Used To
21. More Than A Party
22. Suffer Well
23. Dangerous
24. Enjoy the Silence
25. Never Let Me Down Again
26. Corrupt
27. Flexible
28. Happiest Girl
29. Personal Jesus
30. Christmas Island
31. Any Second Now
32. Nothing’s Impossible
33. The Love Thieves
34. New Life
35. Route 66
Dedication
Special Thanks
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Glossary
Acknowledgements
I want to thank all those who have spoken out about what happened to them behind the iron curtain of Scientology. Reading these accounts reaffirmed my suspicion that these were not isolated incidences or circumstances that had only happened to me.
I wish to thank all those that host internet message boards and sites that provide a place for people to voice their thoughts and tell their individual stories. These have a value that cannot be overestimated. For someone who got out and found these, it helped me to regain a perspective, find out the truth behind an entire body of lies, and helped me come to terms with having spent half my life living based on false information.
They also provided me a voice with which to speak out. I have gotten hundreds of emails and letters from people, thanking me for exposing what goes on behind the scenes at the highest echelon of Scientology, and attributing to my postings their own decisions to do as I did and break free of the chains holding them prisoner.
Foreword
by Mark “Marty” Rathbun
After reading the first several chapters of Blown for Good, I made a mental note to write the author an email. I was going to suggest he have someone else write an alternate Foreword because he might not like what I have to say. While Marc Headley and I were stationed at the same international headquarters property of the Scientology’s elite Sea Organization for nearly fifteen years, his views of some of Scientology founder Hubbard’s writings and my views differed greatly. I never had time to write or send the note because I could not put the manuscript down. I was gripped by Marc’s personal story.
I came to find that while Marc’s opinions about occurrences we both experienced varied from mine, there was every reason they should. After all, Marc did not get into Scientology on his own volition. As a child his mother willed it upon him. I got in after two years of college entirely by my own choice. Marc was forced by circumstances to join the Sea Organization. I had willingly signed on in order to fulfill a purpose. Naturally the way we read material and viewed matters would disagree. Nonetheless, when it came to relating facts – without regard to view or opinion – Marc’s recollection and accuracy were remarkable.
Recognizing that Marc and I had utterly divergent reference points from which to view largely the same culture and experience, Marc’s account became that much more fascinating to me. I began to wonder, how many people had I interacted with over twenty-seven years within the Church whose back story aligned more with Marc’s than mine? On reflection, I decided probably more members of the Sea Organization (some eighty-five hundred strong when I left in 2004) who constitute the management of Scientology internationally had a frame of reference closer to Marc’s than mine. After all, over the past thirty years Scientology’s numbers of new members had been dwindling. The Sea Organization had increasingly relied on recruiting the teenaged kids of long-term Scientologists in order to keep its ranks filled.
A great deal of that majority were people whose lives I affected for better or worse from on high in the church’s leading ecclesiastical body, Religious Technology Center. As I read how progressively insane the dictates from my controlling organization became as they literally rolled down the hill at international headquarters in the foothills of the San Jacinto mountains