Book of Days_ A Novel - James L. Rubart [123]
"Of course."
Kirk lay moaning, holding his neck with one hand, his ribs with the other. Cameron guessed at least a few of them were broken.
Grange held the Glock with both hands and said to Kirk, "Get up. We have a long hike ahead of us." He looked over his shoulder at Taylor. "I will explain to him in detail the way things must be."
Taylor nodded and they watched Kirk stumble up and out of the valley, Grange following, the gun steady in his hand.
Cameron stared at Taylor. "What is that little smirk on your face for?"
"It's not a smirk. It's a smile."
"Why?"
"Forgiveness." Taylor eased over to a boulder and sat. "For Kirk."
"Are you kidding? You're okay with what he just did to you?"
"I'm letting it go."
"What if he tries to come after—?"
"He won't. Grange will keep an eye on him. And once they trace Jason's murder to Kirk, the mayor's schedule will be full for a very long time."
Forgiveness.
Cameron stared at the craggy top of the highest peak surrounding the lake, locked his hands behind his neck, and paced back and forth.
Could he do it? Right here, right now? Could he forgive Taylor for telling him the book was real and bringing him here only to shatter his hopes? He'd believed. Taylor had convinced him the Book of Days existed.
But he'd felt God. He was real. Maybe it was enough.
"So the book is a place of beauty and solitude." Cameron spoke it more to himself than Taylor. "And a place of holiness. A place of God's presence. But not a place of memories and not a place where the future can be seen."
Taylor gazed at Cameron the way his dad used to. With joy, pride, and love shooting out of his eyes like lightning. "You are a good man, Cameron. We will talk about the book in a bit. But first the lake and I need to do some business."
CHAPTER 47
Taylor walked to within a few paces of the water and squatted. A moment later tears fell from his cheek and dropped onto the dirt at his feet.
"Do you want to be alone for this?"
"No. I'd like you to be here." He motioned Cameron to join him and waited till they crouched together on the edge of the pond.
Taylor reached into his pocket and pulled out an oblong object wrapped in a powder blue handkerchief. He motioned to it. "One of Annie's handkerchiefs from when she was a little girl." He unwrapped the object slowly, as if to lend some anticipation to what was inside. But Cameron already knew.
Taylor twirled the window crank around his fingers to catch the reflection of the sun, but he closed his eyes as the sunlight flashed off it, flared against his face. He let it settle into his palm. He sighed, and without opening his eyes brought the handle to his lips and kissed it.
Then in one quick motion he flung the crank out over the water like a discus thrower, tiny swooshes of air echoing back at them as it floated through the sky. Time seemed to slow as the handle spun clockwise, perfectly horizontal with the water's surface.
Then it was gone, the ripples fading fast, as if time had sped up, and silence filled the air. A silence of peace. Of forgiveness, of hope.
"Good-bye, Annie."
Taylor stood and nodded. "Take a moment, my friend, more than one, and let this place talk to you. Soak it in."
"Who is doing the talking?"
"Often I find that depends on who is listening."
"It was never real, was it?"
"The book? We will see. I want to give you the time you need. The time to possibly do some business with the pool of your own."
Cameron sat back on the turf that ringed the edge of the lake, listening to Taylor's fading footsteps as his friend thumped along the shoreline to his left, leaving him with his thoughts.
When Taylor reached a spot directly across the lake from him, Cameron decided his friend was right. He'd known it since the night before, maybe longer. It was time.
He took Jessie's stone out of his pocket, held it in his palm. It felt lighter than it usually did. Then heavier. A few seconds later he couldn't tell how it felt.
He held it out over the lake, his palm up and open, stretching his hand