Books Burn Badly - Manuel Rivas [252]
‘Greek,’ he said finally. ‘Classical.’
‘Like one of those statues missing a nose?’
They laughed. And he breathed in. On any other occasion, he’d have been enraged by the suggestion he might retouch a photo. He was quite direct with customers about it. ‘If you want to look pretty,’ he’d shout at them, ‘go visit a surgeon . . . or Mago Photos!’ But now there really was something happening in his mouth.
‘Excuse me. We’d better get on with it right away,’ he said with sudden urgency. ‘I have to go out. Photograph a wedding.’
‘A wedding?’
Why was she laughing? Everything struck her as funny. She must have been about fifty years old, though it was difficult to be sure. Curly hair, swimmer’s body. What Sada the painter called a nautical age. Against the current. You advance in time, not time in you.
‘A wedding so late?’
‘Nowadays people get married at night.’
‘With malice aforethought.’
He laughed at the woman’s comment. His mouth. What was going on in his mouth? He swallowed. His saliva had a strange taste, of grass. He realised he hadn’t spoken in ages.
He asked her to stand on the stage, with Hercules Lighthouse in the background. There was a small table with a plant, a begonia that miraculously also advanced in time and not the other way round. She instinctively drew near the plant. He was now concerned about her face. The light on her face. He ignored her swimmer’s body. Forgot about asking her if she was the Sea Club’s Esther Williams. Saw her face out of the water. Her curls intertwined with seaweed.
Her beauty was intolerable. When and where had he read this? He thought alcohol acted like bleach on the memory. Ended up erasing everything. The imagination. Dreams. Culture. All that nonsense.
His mouth. That was it. Something in his mouth tasted of seaweed. Never mind!
‘Are you sure you want one of my portraits? I don’t do colour, you know. I paint the photo. So don’t tell me afterwards you’re not happy.’
She gazed at him in silence for a minute. The sitter now studying the lack of light on the artist’s face.
‘I’ve been walking past here for years. I always wanted to have my portrait done. A painted portrait. Then today something strange happened. I thought the studio would be closed. You no longer existed.’
‘You say you come past here every day?’
‘Every day. I’m the fruitseller. You used to buy bigarreaus. At the start of summer, you’d always buy a cone of bigarreaus.’
‘They’re a little harder than cherries. That’s why I like them. Because they’re just that little bit harder than cherries.’
‘Absolutely.’
‘And they don’t have a stalk.’
‘No.’
‘Why don’t bigarreaus have a stalk?’
‘I already told you that a thousand times.’
‘Did you?’
‘Yes, whenever you bought a cone. Bigarreaus don’t have a stalk because they let go of it when they’re gathered from the tree. Like lizard tails.’
He fidgeted about, glancing in all directions, seeking a memory, but without taking his eyes off her.
A memory! My memory, like a bigarreau, has lost its stalk. One moment if you please!
There was just enough light. There, on the hat-stand, was the body that contained it, had kept it until now.
‘Put this on if you would.’
She draped the night-blue shawl over her shoulders. Positioned her arms as if holding and protecting it. Behind her, the trapped storm gathered momentum.
‘Every day?’
‘I used to. Almost every day.’
He sits on the terrace of the Dársena Café. Looks at the camera. Can’t bear the camera’s look because it tells him the truth. Is aware the best photographs were its decision. To hear it better, he has to take it in his hands and look through the viewfinder. He seems to be taking photos of boats, but he isn’t. He’s listening to the camera. To see what it has to say.
‘How could you let go of those photos?’
‘Don’t start that again. What was I supposed to do?’
‘Photos of dead friends. You had to protect that film like a roadside shrine.’
‘You know what happened. They were after the other photos, but they were all mixed up. The photos of friends the day we went to Ara Solis together with the