Breaking Dawn - Stephenie Meyer [134]
Once again, I was aware of being followed, but I was sane this time. I fought the instinct to breathe-to use the flavors in the air to be sure it was Edward. I didnt have to fight long; though I was running faster than I ever had before, shooting like a comet through the straightest path I could find in the trees; Edward caught up with me after a short minute.
A new thought occurred to me, and I stopped dead, my feet planted. I was sure it must be safe here, but I held my breath just in case.
Edward blew past me, surprised by my sudden freeze. He wheeled around and was at my side in a second. He put his hands on my shoulders and stared into my eyes, shock still the dominant emotion on his face.
How did you do that? he demanded.
You let me beat you before, didnt you? I demanded back, ignoring his question. And Id thought Id been doing so well!
When I opened my mouth, I could taste the air- it was unpolluted now, with no trace of the compelling perfume to torment my thirst. I took a cautious breath.
He shrugged and shook his head, refusing to be deflected. Bella, how did you do it?
Run away? I held my breath.
But how did you stop hunting?
When you came up behind me Im so sorry about that.
Why are you apologizing to me? Im the one who was horribly careless. I assumed no one would be so far from the trails, but I should have checked first. Such a stupid mistake! You have nothing to apologize for.
But I growled at you! I was still horrified that I was physically capable of such blasphemy.
Of course you did. Thats only natural. But I cant understand how you ran away.
What else could I do? I asked. His attitude confused me-what did he want to have happened? It might have been someone I know!
He startled me, suddenly bursting into a spasm of loud laughter, throwing his head back and letting the sound echo off the trees.
Why are you laughing at me?
He stopped at once, and I could see he was wary again.
Keep it under control, I thought to myself. I had to watch my temper. Just like I was a young werewolf rather than a vampire.
Im not laughing at you, Bella. Im laughing because I am in shock. And I am in shock because I am completely amazed.
Why?
You shouldnt be able to do any of this. You shouldnt be so so rational. You shouldnt be able to stand here discussing this with me calmly and coolly. And, much more than any of that, you should not have been able to break off mid-hunt with the scent of human blood in the air. Even mature vampires have difficulty with that-were always very careful of where we hunt so as not to put ourselves in the path of temptation. Bella, youre behaving like youre decades rather than days old.
Oh. But Id known it was going to be hard. That was why Id been so on guard. Id been expecting it to be difficult.
He put his hands on my face again, and his eyes were full of wonder. What wouldnt I give to be able to see into your mind for just this one moment.
Such powerful emotions. Id been prepared for the thirst part, but not this. Id been so sure it wouldnt be the same when he touched me. Well, truthfully, it wasnt the same.
It was stronger.
I reached up to trace the planes of his face; my fingers lingered on his lips.
I thought I wouldnt feel this way for a long time? My uncertainty made the words a question. But I still want you.
He blinked in shock. How can you even concentrate on that? Arent you unbearably thirsty?
Of course I was now, now that hed brought it up again!
I tried to swallow and then sighed, closing my eyes like I had before to help me concentrate. I let my senses range out around me, tensed this time in case of another onslaught of the delicious taboo scent.
Edward dropped his hands, not even breathing while I listened farther and farther out into the web of green life, sifting through the scents and sounds for something not totally repellant to my thirst. There was a hint of something different, a faint trail to the east
My eyes flashed open,