Breath, Eyes, Memory - Edwidge Danticat [33]
"Bonjou, good men," replied my grandmother.
"This here is my granddaughter, Uncle Bazie," my grandmother said to an old man sitting on the side of the road.
He was slashing a machete across a thin piece of sugar cane. He took off his hat and bowed in my direction.
"Whereabouts she from?" asked the old man.
"Here," answered my grandmother. "She's from right here."
My grandmother shopped like an army general on rounds.
"Man Legros. Time is God's to waste, not ours. I want a few cinnamon barks, some ginger roots, and sweet potatoes to boil in my milk. Make the potatoes sweet enough so I won't need to put sugar in the milk."
"Only the Grand Master, He can do that," answered Man Legros, as she tugged at an old apron around her waist.
"I want me a mamit of red beans too," said my grandmother. "The beans don't need sweetness."
She watched closely as Man Legros dug a tin cup into a hill of beans, spread out on a piece of cardboard on the ground.
"Give those beans some time to settle in the cup," said my grandmother. "Let them rest in the cup. Between you, between me. We know half of them is pebbles."
"No pebbles here," said Man Legros. She had a blackened silver tooth on either side of her mouth.
My grandmother reached inside her blouse and pulled out a small bundle. She unwrapped a cord around the little pouch, fished out a handful of crumpled gourdes and paid Man Legros.
Louise was sitting at her stand, selling colas to a few Macoutes dressed in bright denim uniforms and dark sunglasses. They were the same ones who had gotten in the van yesterday. Louise was chatting and laughing along with them, as though they were all old friends.
One of them was staring at me. He was younger than the others, maybe even a teenager. He stood on the tip of his boots and shoved an old man aside to get a better look. I walked faster. He grabbed his crotch with one hand, blew me a kiss, then turned back to the others.
The kite boy was tugging at the young Macoute's starched denim pants, begging for a penny. The Macoute reached inside his pocket and handed the child a coin. The boy dashed across the road to buy a piece of sugar cane and mint candy.
My grandmother grabbed my hand and pulled me away. We walked up to a line of cloth and hat vendors with samples draped across their chests, and hats piled on their heads.
"I have this at home," said my grandmother, rubbing the edge of a white fabric against her face. "It will be for my burial."
"Have you come to buy my pig?" Louise asked. She followed us as we toured the fruit stands. My grandmother refused the mango chunks that the vendors handed to her, preferring instead to squeeze and pump the custard apples she wanted to buy.
"You well, Grandme Ife?" Louise asked, jumping in front of my grandmother.
"Oui, I got up this morning. I am well."
"And you Sophie, you well?"
"Very well," I answered. "Thank you."
"Will you buy the pig?"
"Don't you have things to look after?" snapped my grandmother.
The boy with the kite was sitting in Louise's stand for her. Louise kept following us, ignoring my grandmother's coldness.
"My foot, you see, you stepped on it!" The baby-faced Macoute was shouting at a coal vendor.
He rammed the back of his machine gun into the coal vendor's ribs.
"I already know the end," said my grandmother. She grabbed my hand and pulled me away. She wobbled quickly, her sandals hissing as the lazy foot swept across the ground.
Louise rushed back to her stand. My grandmother and I hurried to the flamboyant and started on the road home.
I turned back for one last look. The coal vendor was curled in a fetal position on the ground. He was spitting blood. The other Macoutes joined in, pounding their boots on the coal seller's head. Every one watched in shocked silence, but no one said anything.
My grandmother came back for me. She grabbed my hand so hard my fingers hurt.
"You want to live your nightmares too?" she hollered.
We walked in silence until we could hear the konbit song from the cane fields. The men were singing about a platon-nade,