Cerulean Sins - Laurell K. Hamilton [126]
He was quiet for a heartbeat, then his arms wrapped around me, and he whispered, “Yes.”
I drew back from him, slowly, searching his face, wanting to ask him if he found my “rules” a burden, if I’d taken half the pleasure out of his life, too? I didn’t ask, because I didn’t really want to know. It wasn’t that my courage failed me, it was more that my cowardice overwhelmed me. I’d had about all the truth I could stand for one day.
I kissed him on the cheek and left to find Bobby Lee. Him, I trusted to be in the line of fire. But it was more than that; I wasn’t sleeping with Bobby Lee. I didn’t love him. Sometimes love makes you selfish. Sometimes it makes you stupid. Sometimes it reminds you why you love your gun.
34
I WAS LOOKING through a pair of binoculars at a car parked at the far corner of the Circus of the Damned employee parking lot. Nathaniel was right, it was the same two men, but now they were in a large gold Impala dating to the 1960s, or some such. It was big, old, but in good shape. It was also very different from the shiny new blue Jeep that they’d been in before. They’d switched so the blond was driving. With the binocs I could see that he looked youngish, under forty, over twenty-five. He was clean shaven, wearing a black mock turtleneck and silver frame glasses. His eyes were pale, gray, or grayish blue.
The dark-haired man had put a billed cap on and changed to a larger pair of sunglasses. His face was thin, clean shaven, with a good-sized mole at one corner of his mouth. What they used to call a beauty mark.
I watched them sitting there and wondered why they weren’t at least reading a newspaper, or drinking coffee, something, anything.
They’d done everything they were supposed to do, according to Kasey Krime Stoppers 101. They’d changed vehicles. They’d made small changes to their appearances. All this might have worked, if they weren’t sitting outside Circus of the Damned, doing nothing. No matter how clever you disguise yourself, very few people sit in a car in the middle of the morning and do nothing. Also the employee parking lot was almost empty before noon. Once darkness fell, they could probably have parked and not been noticed so quickly, but this time of morning there was no hiding.
Bobby Lee was explaining all the Kasey Krime Stoppers tips and more to me. “If they hadn’t changed cars, and they hadn’t done anything to change their appearance, it might mean they didn’t care if you spotted them. Or even that they wanted you to spot them. But they’ve changed enough I think they really are trying to follow you.”
I handed him back the binoculars. “Why are they following me?”
“Usually, when people start following you around, you know why.”
“I thought they might be Renfields working for Musette and company, but I don’t think Renfields would have taken the trouble to change their appearance like this. Most Renfields aren’t the brightest of people.”
Bobby Lee grinned at me. “How can you be friends with so many bloodsuckers, and still be so damn disdainful of them?”
I shrugged, and my shrug wasn’t graceful. It never had been. “Just lucky, I guess.”
The smile stayed, but the eyes began to go serious. “What do you want to do about these two?”
For a second, I thought he meant Asher and Jean-Claude, then I realized he meant the two yahoos in the Impala. The fact that even for a second I thought he meant something else said just how bad my concentration was. Concentration like that will get you killed in a fire fight.
I took a deep breath, another, let them out slowly, trying to clear my head. I needed to be here, now, not worrying about my increasingly complex personal life. Here and now with men and women with guns, about to risk their lives because I asked them to do it. Maybe the two men in the car weren’t dangerous at all, but we couldn’t count on that. We had to treat them like they were. If we were wrong, no harm done. If we were right, well, we’d be as prepared as we could be.
I couldn’t shake the feeling of impending disaster. I looked