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560 “numerous occurrences of homosexual material”: Robert Towers, in New York Review of Books, March 17, 1977, 3–4.
560 the sound of his “fruity accent”: JC to Valhouli, Dec. 14 [1977], Swem.
561 “I'm having a marvelous time”: JC to Gottlieb, March 16, 1977, Swem.
561 “I'd be honored”: SD int. John Crutcher, June 22, 1985, Swem.
561 “Mary plans to appear”: GT, 280.
561 “demonstrating a food-chopper”: JC to MZ, April 14 [1978].
561 “My name is John Cheever”: CJC, 139.
561 “cordial but shy”: Peter Benelli to Lillian Wentworth, Aug. 13, 1982, Thayer.
562 return to Thayer and “snatch a smoke”: Lillian Wentworth, “And Recalled,” Parents League of New York Review, 1984, 1.
562 “a delegation of Bulgarians”: quoted in GT, 283.
562 “the naive optimist”: John Koster, “John Cheever Reads, FDU Listens,” Bergen Record, Sept. 28, 1978, C8.
562 “the first western writer to defect”: HBD, 157.
562 “Bulgaria seems quite dark”: LJC, 337.
562 “You may have forgotten what I am like”: JC to Litvinov, April 4 [1977].
563 “we embrace and shout in unison”: Arthur Unger, “John Cheever's Long View,” Christian Science Monitor, Oct. 24, 1979, 17.
563 “stupidity and clumsiness and brutality”: CJC, 79.
563 he “unbuttoned his vest and cut a fart”: GT, 284.
563 “What political or social significance”: JC to Litvinov, June 23, 1977.
564 “We kissed the mayor”: GT, 287.
564 “Saroyan will be the only one”: Gore Vidal to SD, Oct. 16, 1984, Swem.
564 “Women are jealous”: Samuel Coale, “Portrait of John Cheever,” Swem.
565 “If I sounded sinister yesterday morning”: JC to MZ, April 29 [1977].
565 “That one is in conflict with oneself”: CJC, 158.
565 “Brooding, as I must, about homosexuality”: LJC, 335.
566 “I love you because so much green[n]ess”: JC to MZ [c. May 1977]; the remark is deleted from the letter published in LJC, 336–37.
566 he can “kiss Jody passionately, but not tenderly”: F, 122.
567 “bearass I look like something”: JC to MZ, Oct. 20 [1977].
567 “I was delighted to be free of the censure”: JJC, 347.
567 “Anyone who caressed”: ibid., 335.
567 “he suffers acutely from the loss of gravity”: LJC, 339.
567 “to engage one's interest in the welfare”: JC to MZ [c. Aug. 1977?].
568 “something I first got”: JC to MZ [c. July 1977].
568 “The contempt you bring to this cast”: LJC, 357.
568 “With a stiff prick I can read”: JC to James Holmes, March 25, 1979, courtesy of Ned Rorem.
568–569 “We would rent a quaint Vermont farmhouse”: JC to MZ, May 24 [1977]; the passage is deleted from the letter published in LJC, 337.
569 Max was getting “the wretch treatment”: Rudnik to Cheevers, Aug. 30, 1977, CFP.
569 “Your description of your love for Marilyn”: published, with deletions, in LJC, 340.
569 “I'm determined that this should end happily”: JC to MZ, Nov. 20 [1977].
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR {1977–1978}
571 “for the first time I feel somewhat estranged”: JC to MZ [c. Aug. 1977].
571 “returning to the banks of the Iowa River”: JC to Leggett, Sept. 17, 1977, Swem.
572 “I love to see it sitting there”: author int. Daniel Halpern, Nov. 16, 2004.
572 “Your psychiatrist and mine can't be the same”: JC to Halpern, Nov. 27 [1977], NYPL-MSS.
573 “Some of the Russians”: JC to Cowley, March 1, 1978, Newberry.
573 “I wonder what it feels like to die”: SD int. Bev Chaney, Jr., June 26, 1984, Swem.
573 “He hinted at the indifference of his marriage”: JJC, 344.
573 “I would try to buy myself time”: e-mail from MZ to author, Aug. 2, 2006.
574 “After spending a night”: JC to MZ [c. Feb. 1978].
574 “Neither of us is homosexual”: LJC, 341.
575 “Old Cheever … has gone Gay”: quoted in HBD, 208.
575 “Every woman needs a man who's a friend”: SD int. Palamountain, July 17, 1985, Swem.
575 “ ‘That,’ Anne said sternly, ‘is a purely platonic’ “: JC to MZ, May 24 [1977]; this passage is deleted from the letter published in LJC, 337.
576 wanted to pursue “as a lark”: Arthur Unger, “John Cheever's Long View,” Christian Science Monitor, October 24, 1979, 18.