City of Ruin - Mark Charan Newton [34]
‘Stop it. You’re making me jealous now. I need some drink, and I don’t care if it’s too early.’ Zizi stood up and ordered the young waiter to bring some whisky for her coffee. Once she had settled again, she waved a finger at Beami to get her to continue. ‘This revelation is the closest I’ve got to love in a year.’
‘Well, I was older than him by two years. He was so laid back, and I guess that’s why we worked. I sometimes needed someone to boss around, and he couldn’t be bothered ever to decide on matters. I wanted someone to air my frustrations to, and he liked to hear them.’
‘What happened in the end?’ Zizi asked. ‘It all sounds too good to be true, yet the pair of you didn’t last.’
‘The army,’ Beami explained. ‘He wanted to be a Night Guard and I wanted to stay here, to work. It’s so rare for any woman in the Empire to make something special of herself, and devoting my time to relics seemed a way around that for me. I didn’t want to give that occupation up for anyone. We started to argue loudly, and we did those little things where people try to make each other jealous – when you try to make the other want you more. He promised he’d write often, great sprawling letters they were at first, and then they turned into simple updates. Pretty soon I never heard from him again.’
‘Now that,’ Rymble announced, suddenly wide awake and feeling gregarious, ‘breaks my fucking heart. I’d scribble you a poem if you wouldn’t wipe your arse on it.’ He played with the gold ribbons dangling from his half-mask.
‘Your poems are not even good enough for that basic function, you disgusting cretin,’ Zizi declared, which made Beami laugh.
*
Like using a relic to carve a pathway back to your past.
This was it, the rarest of opportunities, a chance that most people didn’t enjoy. Beami couldn’t remember when she had last felt like this: the angst burning inside her, the worry about how she looked, whether her breath was fresh, wondering now if her new perfume was too strong, too obvious. Wondering if he would still think the same about her, after all these years. The mirror had become like some tool through which she began to deconstruct herself, noticing all the changes that age had brought. But she was still young. It wasn’t as if an aeon had passed between them seeing each other.
In her best outfit, comprising of two layers of dark-red dress with a black shawl, a look that had lasted well in Villiren for a couple of years now, she waited. Waited for him.
Beami took a look around the furnishings of her room. Everything was expensive: decorative mahogany, not from this island, elaborate rugs and drapes, decorated in patterns from unheard-of tribes, ornaments that may or may not have had names, a crystal console table. Here was quality acting as an expression of her husband’s wealth, yet she did not care for them at all. A deeper emotion had disabled the impact of these items on her life.
What am I thinking, asking him here?
The heating system spluttered again, firegrain stalling somewhere in the pipes. Snow skidded across the windows, distracting her attention, and she went to one, to regard the city beyond. The people of the city were still out and about, wrapped in furs, some selling biolumes, traders heading to the irens, carts and fiacres grinding to and fro along the main thoroughfares.
What if Malum returns unexpectedly . . . ?
Malum was out, but this was still their marital home, and his property. Then again, why was she being so paranoid? It wasn’t as if she was actually in the throes of an affair, was she, by just standing here in