Crash Into Me_ A Survivor's Search for Justice - Liz Seccuro [51]
CHAPMAN: Standing, sitting, what—can you describe that?
ME: In a matter of moments he was climbing on top of me.
CHAPMAN: Do you know whether he had his clothes on?
ME: Yes, his clothes were on.
CHAPMAN: Did he remove his clothing?
ME: No, he did not.
CHAPMAN: At any time did he remove his clothing?
ME: Not to my recollection[.]
CHAPMAN: Would you tell the Judge what he did?
ME: Help me out here. Where do you want me to start?
CHAPMAN: Well, you’ve described that he was on top of you?
ME: Yes.
CHAPMAN: At that time he was on top of you, what was going on? What did he do?
ME: The first thing that I recall is that I was digitally penetrated with his hand.
CHAPMAN: What part of your body was digitally penetrated?
ME: My vagina.
CHAPMAN: Could you tell the Court what he did in order to be able to do that, with what force, if any, he was able to accomplish that?
ME: It was rather forceful I recall because it was extraordinarily painful for me. And it was quite brief, ten seconds, I guess that’s not very brief when that is happening.
CHAPMAN: Were you penetrated in any other way or by any other object?
ME: Yes.
CHAPMAN: Would you describe that to the Court, please?
ME: After the digital penetration, he lay on top of me and forced his penis in and around my vaginal area. I say around because there—how do I say this—?
CHAPMAN: Well, use your own words and describe what he did.
ME: Okay. He was extremely forceful and because I was a virgin, there was—he was having a very difficult time penetrating me, so he was being extremely aggressive and fast and rough.
Mike started to become visibly and audibly agitated and I feared he would jump the seats and strangle William Beebe. A bailiff came over, bent down and whispered to him to settle down or he would have to leave the courtroom.
ME: I remember the first thing I tried to do was to keep my legs together in the hopes that he wouldn’t get in as hard as he got. And I remember having my hands up over my face. It’s almost like when a turtle is on its back and he can’t—and it’s fighting, but it really is not getting anywhere. My arms then became pinned to my sides by the Defendant, so my arms were no longer fighting, so I tried to move my legs, to kick my legs, but once again, he was just—he was just so much bigger than me, and I couldn’t.
Sobbing.
CHAPMAN: Could you tell the Court if there were any other ways in which you resisted what he was attempting to do?
ME: I said “No!” I said “Get off me!” I said “Please stop, you’re hurting me!”
CHAPMAN: Did he do that.
ME: No, he did not.
CHAPMAN: How did it stop?
ME: I don’t know how it stopped because after a few minutes, I—I remember looking out the window, which was to my left, I remember seeing the streetlight and wondering—I don’t know if the window was open or closed, wondering if anyone could hear me. And I—I just—I remember thinking “I’m going to die here in this room and my mom and dad aren’t going to find me.” And all the while, the rape was continuing and, at that point, I lost consciousness.
CHAPMAN: Now, when you say you lost consciousness, is that something of which you’re aware of [or] is it something in the nature of a conclusion that you reached based on other things?
ME: No, I literally remember just everything—I remember seeing stars from the pain and it became too great for me and I recall just saying, “You know, it’s okay, you can just let go, you can—you can go to sleep.” And I just blacked out. I actually remember the process of it.
The worst was over.
CHAPMAN: Can you remember the next thing? What’s your first recollection after that?
ME: I awoke on the sofa, which was perpendicular to the bed where the attack occurred. And I was naked and wrapped in a sheet which had blood on it.
CHAPMAN: Where did it have blood on it?
ME: Sort of where—I had been wrapped in it, I don’t know how. And it was—there was sort of a one and a half foot square area around my mid-section after I inspected the sheet. No one was in the room when I awoke.
CHAPMAN: Do you know how much later it was that