Cryoburn - Lois McMaster Bujold [75]
M'lord sighed. "I, you, Rowan, and Raven all tried to talk her into it. If her Dendarii insurance hadn't covered it, I'd have popped for it out of pocket, not that the Duronas would have let me. They still figure they owed her and all the Dendarii mercs involved for their escape from Jackson's Whole. But Taura wasn't having it at any price."
What, wake up, still a freak, in some strange place and time, with all my friends gone? Taura had said to the protesting Roic, in that terribly-wrong-for-her thready voice. But you could make new friends! was an argument that had failed to move her, in the exhaustion of her failing metabolism.
Roic made a helpless gesture. "You could have overridden her. After she was too far gone to tell, ordered her cryoprepped." God knew m'lord was capable of riding over any number of other people's wills.
M'lord shrugged, face sobered in the shared memory. "That would have been for our benefit, then. Not for hers. But Taura chose fire over ice. That, at least, I had no trouble understanding. High temperature cremation leaves no DNA."
She'd been indifferent to where her ashes would be scattered, except not Jackson's Whole, so m'lord had provided a burial plot for her urn in his own family cemetery at Vorkosigan Surleau, overlooking the long lake, a task m'lord and Roic had seen to personally.
"Nobody," muttered Roic, "should die of old age at thirty-standard." Certainly not such a blazing spirit as Taura's had been.
M'lord looked meditative. "If the Duronas' or anybody else's anti-aging research ever succeeds, I wonder if death at three hundred or five hundred will come to seem as outrageous?"
"Or two thousand," said Roic, trying to imagine it. Some few Betans and Cetagandans actually made it to almost two centuries, Roic had heard, but their healths had been genetically guaranteed before conception. For random folks alive and afoot already, not a help.
"Not two thousand, probably," said m'lord. "Some actuarially-minded wag once calculated that if all the medical causes of death were removed, the average person would still only make it to about eight hundred-standard before encountering some fatal accident. I suppose that means that some would slab themselves at eighteen and some at eighteen hundred, but it would still be the same game in the end. Just set to a new equilibrium."
"Makes you wonder about the Refusers."
"Indeed. If the God they posit waited billions of years for them to be born, a few hundred extra years till they die should hardly make a difference to Him." M'lord stared off into some sort of twisty m'lord mind-space. "All the worry people expend over not existing after they die, yet nary a one ever seems to spare a moment to worry about not having existed before they were conceived. Or at all. After all, one sperm over and we would have been our sisters, and we'd never have been missed."
Since there didn't seem an answer to this that didn't make Roic's head hurt trying to think about, he kept silent. They turned in past the sagging chain link gates of Madame Suze's facility at last.
It took many hours to bring Lisa Sato's core temperature up from deep-cryonic to just below freezing. Miles sent Johannes back to the consulate, and, as the night wore on, took turn-about with Roic napping in a makeshift bunk in a room opposite Raven's cobbled-together revival