Darkness at Noon - Arthur Koestler [52]
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The day before the term set by Ivanov expired, at the serving out of supper, Rubashov had the feeling that there was something unusual in the air. He could not explain why; the food was doled out according to routine, the melancholy tune of the bugle sounded punctually at the prescribed time; yet it seemed to Rubashov that there was something tense about the atmosphere. Perhaps one of the orderlies had looked at him a shade more expressively than usual; perhaps the voice of the old warder had had a curious undertone. Rubashov did not know, but he was unable to work; he felt the tension in his nerves, as rheumatic people feel a storm. After the "Last Post" had died away, he spied out into the corridor; the electric bulbs, lacking current, burnt at half strength and shed their dim light on to the tiles; the silence of the corridor seemed more final and hopeless than ever. Rubashov lay down on his bunk, stood up again, forced himself to write a few lines, stubbed out his cigarette and lit a new one. He looked down into the yard: it was thawing, the snow had become dirty and soft, the sky was clouded over; on the parapet opposite, the sentinel with his rifle was marching up and down. Once more Rubashov looked through the judas into the corridor: silence, desolation and electric light. Against his custom, and in spite of the late hour, he started a conversation with No. 402. ARE YOU ASLEEP?he tapped. For a while there was no answer and Rubashov waited with a feeling of disappointment. Then it came-quieter and slower than usual: NO. DO YOU FEEL IT TOO? FEEL--WHAT?asked Rubashov. He breathed heavily; he was lying on the bunk, tapping with his pince-nez. Again No. 402 hesitated a while. Then he tapped so subduedly that it sounded as if he were speaking in a very low voice: IT'S BETTER FOR YOU TO SLEEP. ... Rubashov lay still on his bunk and was ashamed that No. 402 should speak to him in such a paternal tone. He lay on his back in the dark and looked at his pince-nez, which he held against the wall in his half-raised hand. The silence outside was so thick that he heard it humming in his ears. Suddenly the wall ticked again: FUNNY--THAT YOU FELT IT AT ONCE. ... FELT WHAT? EXPLAIN!tapped Rubashov, sitting