Darkside_ A Novel - Belinda Bauer [1]
Also by Belinda Bauer
Blacklands
For more information on Belinda Bauer and her books,
see her website at www.belindabauer.co.uk
Forty-six Days
The sounds of the hospital came back to Lucy muffled and from far away. She became aware of a big hand holding hers - tough, dry and warm.
Jonas, she thought with a twist of guilt.
Stiffly she moved her head and opened her eyes, expecting to read worry, relief - even anger - in his eyes.
Instead, for one crazy moment, she found she had been sucked through a tear in time, and that she was married to a small boy wearing a look of such terror on his face that she flinched and clutched at his hand as if he were the one who was falling.
'Jonas!'
Her throat burned and the word came out as a harsh caw, but it aged him like a slap in the face and immediately his eyes filled with all those emotions she'd expected to see when she first looked up at him - even the anger.
Lucy didn't care. She brimmed with tears. Jonas held her in his arms - a man again - and she overflowed into the crook of his elbow while he bent over her and said quiet, tender things into her hair.
'I didn't mean it,' she sobbed, but she couldn't even understand her own muffled words.
And anyway, she wasn't certain they were true.
Twenty-three Days
Margaret Priddy awoke to the brilliant beam of light she had been anticipating with fear and longing for years.
Finally, she thought, I'm dying. And tears of loss mingled with those of joy on her lined cheeks.
Ever since her fall she had lain here - or somewhere very like it - slack and immobile and dependent on other people for her most basic needs. Food, water, warmth. Toilet - which the nurses carried out as if her dignity were numbed, not her body. Company ...
The nurses tried their best.
'Morning, Margaret! Beautiful morning!'
'Morning, Margaret! Sleep well?'
'Morning, Margaret! Raining again!'
And then they would either run out of paltry inspiration or jabber on about their night out getting drunk, or their children's seemingly endless achievements at school. A relentless rota of cheerful bustle with big busts and bingo wings. The break in silence was welcome at first but, in the face of inanity, Margaret quickly longed for solitude.
She was grateful. Of course she was. Grateful and polite - the way an English lady should be in the circumstances. They had no way of knowing about her gratitude, of course, but she tried to convey it in her eyes and she thought some of them understood. Peter did, but then Peter had always been a sensitive boy.
Now - as the light made her eyes burn - Margaret Priddy thought of her son and the tears of loss took precedence. Peter was forty-four years old but she still always thought of him first as a five-year-old in blue shorts and a Batman T-shirt, running down the shingle in Minehead on the first beach holiday they'd ever taken.
She was leaving her little boy alone.
She knew it was silly, but that's how she felt about it.
She was dying and he'd be all alone.
But still she was dying. At last. And it was just as she'd imagined - white and wonderful and pain-free.
It was only when she sensed the press of weight on the bed that was her home that she realized this was not the start of her journey to the Hereafter, but someone in her room with a torch.
Someone uninvited, invading her home, her room, her bed, the very air in front of her face ...
Every fibre of Margaret Priddy's being screamed to respond to the danger.
Unfortunately, every fibre of her being below the neck had been permanently disconnected from her brain three years before when old Buster - the most reliable of horses - had stumbled to his knees on a patch of ice, throwing her head-first into a wooden telegraph pole.
So instead of screaming, punching and fighting for what was left of her life, she could only blink in terror as the killer placed a pillow over her face.
He didn't want to hurt her. Only wanted her dead.
As he suffocated