Darkside_ A Novel - Belinda Bauer [60]
Until he remembered where he was and who he was and what he was.
Then he got up and walked away.
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More than anyone, Lucy knew what Jonas had sacrificed for her.
He'd had his eye on Glock 17s and body armour, but her diagnosis had forced them to make other choices.
They had married in the local church with poor Margaret Priddy playing a clunking, wheezing 'All Things Bright And Beautiful' on the eccentric little organ. They had only sent invitations to her family and friends; he'd told her everyone in Shipcott would come anyway, whether they were invited or not. And they did - standing at the back and outside among the leaning tombstones to watch Jonas lead his bride into the sunshine.
His parents had beamed.
Desmond and Cath.
Lucy had only met them twice before the wedding and would only see them once again, before they were both killed instantly in a head-on collision on the A39 link road. The other car had rolled right over the Hollys' demure Rover, which had been so flattened that when she and Jonas were later allowed to see it in the police pound, a box of tissues in a hand-crocheted cover was still held in its place between the roof and the parcel shelf. Lucy would never forget it - or the way Jonas's hand had twitched and tightened a little around hers at the sight.
Lucy had always felt the need to protect him. It was ridiculous really. Jonas could take care of himself.
She was the one who was weak and feeble. She with her endless medications that he had to fetch and store and prepare, and administer in injected doses. She with her tears and her depressions and her dropping of crockery and her failure to cook or clean properly and her mood swings and her despair. She with her weight gain, her weight loss, the regular desertion of her libido. He would go weeks - sometimes months - without seeing her naked behind unless he was about to stick a needle in it.
Hot.
Not.
He never complained. Never got impatient. Never made her feel bad.
But today, just maybe, she'd seen the effect on Jonas for the first time.
He never talked about growing up in the village - as if he thought she already knew his business the way everyone did here in Shipcott - but she knew that he'd grown up with Danny Marsh because he'd told her after Danny's mother was killed.
'She used to make us beans and chips,' he'd said suddenly in bed that night.
She had turned to him in the darkness, even though she couldn't see his face.
'Mrs Marsh?'
'Yeah. She was my best friend's mother. When I was at school.'
'You mean Danny Marsh from the garage?'
'Yes,' he'd said.
'I never knew that. He's sweet. Why don't you hang out with him any more?'
' "Sweet"?' he'd said, and she'd heard the laugh in his voice. 'Is he sweeter than me?'
'Much,' she'd said, only too pleased to feel his mood lift, and there it was - they'd changed the subject. He'd changed the subject.
And today she'd watched him beat up Danny Marsh. There was no other word for it. She'd sat in the car and watched him lose control. And it made her think for the first time how much control he must have had to lose.
She wanted to hold him and tell him it was all going to be all right. To stroke his hair like a child's. It made her think again of Jonas's face at the hospital - before he knew he was being watched. That fear. That raw, innocent fear that she'd only ever seen before on the faces of small children.
It was a face that made her wonder where that little boy inside him hid for the rest of the time.
Eight Days
'I've got a theory,' said Reynolds.
You always do, thought Marvel. Reynolds was a hotbed of theories, hypotheses and what he like to call 'proposals'.
They were sitting in the mobile unit, as close to the Calor gas as was physically possible without actually bursting into flames.
They'd had a call from