Deep Black - Andy McNab [128]
Jerry took shot after shot and the camera whined each time like a tiny jet engine.
I talked Nuhanovic along the whole timeline, from the moment I saw vehicles approaching to the moment he had his argument with Mladic. ‘There was a group of girls held back after you’d left . . .’
His eyes never left mine.
‘They were raped, systematically. One threw herself out of a third-floor window.’
What I was looking for was confirmation, but I wasn’t going to get it just yet. His eyes went down and fixed on the rice. He took a few grains in his fingers and rolled it into a ball. Jerry still buzzed around us like a worker-bee with a mission.
‘I found out much later that one of them was called Zina. She was only fifteen. After the other girl jumped, and they scraped her off Mladic’s wagon, Zina made a run for it, towards the treeline where I was hiding.’
He watched the ball of rice all the way to his mouth.
‘The Serbs just laughed. Some of them were laughing so much they found it hard to come into the aim. When she spotted me, she looked confused. She stopped, looked round at the Serbs, then turned again. I can still see the look on her face. That was when she took a round in the back.
‘She fell directly in front of me. So close I felt the mud splash. She crawled towards me, begging with her eyes. And I did nothing to help her as she died. I’ll never forget her eyes . . .’
I ripped some bread and picked up another chunk of meat. ‘For a long time, I used to lie awake at night, wondering what she’d be doing now if she was alive. Maybe she’d be a mother, maybe a model. She was a good-looking kid.’
Nuhanovic looked up slowly as he swallowed. Jerry pressed the shutter release and the flash made him blink. For a moment, he looked surprised.
‘That’s a very moving story, Nick, but one I find somewhat confusing. In fact, I was confused from the moment Ramzi told me about you.
‘I had to ask myself, why would a Westerner have been in that part of Bosnia on that particular day? He could only have been a newsman, a soldier, or a spy. I was intrigued. Hence, my invitation.
‘And I am still intrigued. You say you were a reporter, but I never saw a report about Mladic murdering Muslims that day. Why is that? No one in that line of business would have failed to exploit such a story. It would have grabbed world headlines.
‘But no . . . no story. I think that is because you are not a reporter, Nick. Which means you must have been there as a soldier, or a spy. But let us not beat about the bush: the distinction between the two is irrelevant.’ His eyes never left mine. ‘Satisfy my curiosity, Nick. Why were you really there?’
Fuck it, why not? In any case, if I wanted more from him, I had to expect to trade.
I told him why I was there, how I just lay in my hide, waiting for the Paveway to come down on Mladic. ‘I felt a lot of guilt for not calling it in sooner. I was haunted by the thought I could have stopped the killing. Lately, I’ve even been thinking that talking to you about it might help me. You were there, maybe you would have understood.’
Nuhanovic’s face was set in a frown. ‘Mladic?’ He nodded to himself, as if working out the answer to his own question. ‘Mladic . . . but they let him escape.’
I didn’t want to talk about fucking Mladic. ‘Someone explained to me I don’t need forgiveness. I did what I thought was right at the time . . .’
Nuhanovic stared deeply at me, his lips pursed. ‘I agree with your friend. He is very wise.’ Then he added, without a flicker of a smile, ‘He is obviously not a Serb.’
I lifted a glass of orange juice to my mouth and took a sip. Time to up the ante. ‘I’m confused about something, too. Why were all the girls kept behind after everyone else had left? And why were a few of those kept by Mladic after you yourself had gone? Did you know about that?’
‘Of course I did.’ He seemed angry, but with what or whom I couldn’t work out. ‘The argument with Mladic was because he wanted me to pay the agreed price for the young women, yet keep some back for his men. We were arguing about cost, not lives. He