Doctor Zhivago - Boris Pasternak [81]
“Cossacks? Never!” the commissar flared up. “That’s some sort of 1905, some prerevolutionary reminiscence! Here we’re at opposite poles from you, here your generals have outsmarted themselves!”
“Nothing’s been done yet. It’s all just a plan, a suggestion.”
“We have an agreement with the military command not to interfere in operational instructions. I don’t cancel the Cossacks. Let it be. But I for my part will undertake the steps prompted by good sense. Do they have a bivouac there?”
“Hard to say. A camp, in any case. Fortified.”
“Excellent. I want to go to them. Show me this menace, these forest bandits. They may be rebels, even deserters, but they’re the people, gentlemen, that’s what you forget. And the people are children, you must know that, you must know their psychology. Here a special approach is needed. You must know how to touch their best, most sensitive strings, so that they begin to sound. I’ll go to them in their clearing and have a heart-to-heart talk with them. You’ll see in what exemplary order they return to their abandoned positions. Want to bet? You don’t believe me?”
“It’s doubtful. But God grant it.”
“I’ll tell them: ‘Brothers, look at me. See how I, an only son, the hope of the family, with no regrets, sacrificed my name, my position, my parents’ love, in order to gain freedom for you, the like of which no other people in the world enjoys. I did it, and so did many young men, to say nothing of the old guard of our glorious predecessors, of the hard-labor populists and the People’s Will Schlüsselburgers.8 Were we doing it for ourselves? Did we need that? You’re no longer rank-and-file soldiers as before, but warriors of the world’s first revolutionary army. Ask yourselves honestly, are you worthy of that lofty title? At a time when your motherland, bleeding profusely, makes a last effort to shake off the enemy that has twined around her like a hydra, you let yourselves be stupefied by a gang of obscure adventurers and turned into irresponsible riffraff, a mob of unbridled scoundrels, glutted with freedom, for whom whatever they’re given is always too little, just like that pig—sit him at a table and he’ll put his feet on it—oh, I’ll get to them, I’ll shame them!”
“No, no, it’s risky,” the district tried to object, furtively exchanging meaningful glances with his assistant.
Galiullin tried to talk the commissar out of his insane plan. He knew the daredevils of the 212th from the division their regiment belonged to, in which he had once served himself. But the commissar would not listen to him.
Yuri Andreevich kept trying all the while to get up and leave. The commissar’s naïveté embarrassed him. But the sly knowingness of the district and his assistant, two jeering and underhanded finaglers, was not much better. The foolishness and the craftiness were worthy of each other. And all of it—superfluous, nonexistent, lackluster, which life itself so longs to avoid—spewed out in a torrent of words.
Oh, how one wants sometimes to go from such giftlessly high-flown, cheerless human wordiness into the seeming silence of nature, into the arduous soundlessness of long, persistent labor, into the wordlessness of deep sleep, of true music, and of a quiet, heartfelt touch grown mute from fullness of soul!
The doctor remembered that he still faced a talk with Antipova, unpleasant in any case. He was glad of the necessity to see her, even at that price. But it was unlikely that she had come back yet. Taking advantage of the first appropriate moment, the doctor got up and inconspicuously left the office.
6
As it happened, she was already at home. The doctor was informed of her arrival by Mademoiselle, who added that Larissa Fyodorovna had come back tired, quickly eaten supper, and gone to her room, asking not to be disturbed.
“But knock at her door,” Mademoiselle advised. “She’s probably not asleep yet.