Dr Thorne - Anthony Trollope [59]
It was almost ill-natured of her to say this; but she had not meant to say it in the sense which the sounds seemed to bear. She had failed in being able to bring her uncle to the point she wished by the road she had planned, and in seeking another road, she had abruptly fallen into unpleasant places.
‘I should be very sorry that my niece should think so,’ said he; ‘and am sorry, too, that she should say so. But, Mary, to tell the truth, I hardly know at what you are driving. You are, I think, not so clear minded – certainly, not so clear worded – as is usual with you.’
‘I will tell you, uncle’; and, instead of looking up into his face, she turned her eyes down on the green lawn beneath their feet.
‘Well, Minnie, what is it?’; and he took both her hands in his.
‘I think that Miss Gresham should not marry Mr Moffat. I think so because her family is high and noble, and because his is low and ignoble. When one has an opinion on such matters, one cannot but apply it to things and people around one; and having applied my opinion to her, the next step naturally is to apply it to myself. Were I Miss Gresham, I would not marry Mr Moffat though he rolled in gold. I know where to rank Miss Gresham. What I want to know is, where I ought to rank myself?’
They had been standing when she commenced her last speech; but as she finished it, the doctor moved on again, and she moved with him. He walked on slowly without answering her; and she, out of her full mind, pursued aloud the tenor of her thoughts.
‘If a woman feels that she would not lower herself by marrying in a rank beneath herself she ought also to feel that she would not lower a man that she might love by allowing him to marry into a rank beneath his own – that is, to marry her.’
‘That does not follow,’ said the doctor, quickly. ‘A man raises a woman to his own standard, but a woman must take that of the man she marries.’
Again they were silent, and again they walked on, Mary holding her uncle’s arm with both her hands. She was determined, however, to come to the point, and after considering for a while how best she might do it, she ceased to beat any longer about the bush, and asked him a plain question.
‘The Thornes are as good a family as the Greshams, are they not?’
‘In absolute genealogy they are, my dear. That is, when I choose to be an old fool and talk of such matters in a sense different from that in which they are spoken of by the world at large, I may say that the Thornes are as good, or perhaps better, than the Greshams; but I should be sorry to say so seriously to anyone. The Greshams now stand much higher in the county than the Thornes do.’
‘But they are of the same class.’
‘Yes, yes; Wilfred Thorne, of Ullathorne, and our friend the squire here, are of the same class.’
‘But, uncle, I and Augusta Gresham – are we of the same class?’
‘Well, Minnie, you would hardly have me boast that I am of the same class with the squire – I, a poor country doctor?’
‘You are not answering me fairly, dear uncle; dearest uncle, do you not know that you are not answering me fairly? You know what I mean. Have I a right to call the Thornes of Ullathorne my cousins?’
‘Mary, Mary, Mary!’ said he, after a minute’s pause, still allowing his arm to hang loose, that she might hold it with both her hands. ‘Mary, Mary, Mary! I would that you had spared me this!’
‘I could not have spared it to you for ever, uncle.’
‘I would that you could have done so; I would that you could!’
‘It is over now, uncle; it is told now; I will grieve you no more. Dear, dear, dearest! I should love you more than ever now; I would, I would, I would if that were possible. What should I be but for you? What must I have been but for you?’ And she threw herself on his breast, and clinging with her arms round his neck, kissed his forehead, cheeks, and lips.
There was nothing more then said on the subject between them. Mary asked no further question, nor did the doctor volunteer further information. She would have been most anxious to ask about her mother