East Lynne [188]
months now had she been at East Lynne, and had hitherto escaped detection. Time and familiarity render us accustomed to most things-- to danger among the rest; and she had almost ceased to fear recognition, living--so far as that point went--far more peaceably than she had done at first. She and the children were upon the best of terms. She had greatly endeared herself to them; she loved them, and they loved her--perhaps nature was asserting her own hidden claims.
She felt very anxious about William. He seemed to grow weaker, and she determined to make her fears known to Mr. Carlyle.
She quitted the parlor. She had heard Mr. Carlyle come in. Crossing the hall, she tapped softly at the drawing-room door, and then as softly entered. It was the moment of Mr. Carlyle's loud greeting to his wife. They stood together heedless of her.
Gliding out again, she paced the hall, her hands pressed upon her beating heart. How /dared/ that heart rise up in sharp rebellion at these witnessed tokens of love? Was Barbara not his wife? Had she not a legal claim to all his tenderness? Who was she that she should resent them in her jealousy? What, though they had once been hers, hers only, had she not signed and sealed her own forfeit of them, and so made room for Barbara?
Back to the gray parlor, there she stood, her elbow on the mantelpiece, her eyes hidden by her hand. Thus she remained for some minutes, and Lucy thought how sad she looked.
But Lucy felt hungry, and was casting longing glances to the tea- table. She wondered how long her governess meant to keep it waiting. "Madame Vine," cried she presently, "don't you know that tea is ready?"
This caused Madame Vine to raise her eyes. They fell on the pale boy at her feet. She made no immediate answer, only placed her hand on Lucy's shoulder.
"Oh, Lucy dear, I--I have many sorrows to bear."
"The tea will warm you, and there is some nice jam," was Miss Lucy's offered consolation.
"Their greeting, tender as it may be, is surely over by this time," thought Lady Isabel, an expression something like mockery curving her lips. "I will venture again."
Only to see him with his wife's face on his breast, and his lips bent upon it. But they had heard her this time, and she had to advance, in spite of her spirit of misery and her whitened features.
"Would you be so good sir, as to come and look at William?" she asked in a low tone, of Mr. Carlyle.
"Certainly."
"What for?" interjected Barbara.
"He looks very ill. I do not like his looks. I am fearing whether he can be worse than we have thought."
They went to the gray parlor, all three of them. Mr. Carlyle was in first, and had taken a long, silent look at William before the others entered.
"What is he doing on the floor?" exclaimed Barbara, in her astonishment. "He should not lie on the floor, Madame Vine."
"He lays himself down there at the dusk hour, and I cannot get him up again. I try to persuade him to use the sofa, but it is of no use."
"The floor will not hurt him," said Mr. Carlyle. /This/ was the dark shade: his boy's failing health.
William opened his eyes. "Who's that--papa?"
"Don't you feel well, William?"
"Oh, yes, I'm very well; but I am tired."
"Why do you lie down here?"
"I like lying here. Papa, that pretty white rabbit of mine is dead."
"Indeed. Suppose you get up and tell me all about it."
"I don't know about it myself yet," said William, softly rising. "The gardener told Lucy when she was out just now: I did not go; I was tired. He said--"
"What has tired you?" interrupted Mr. Carlyle, taking hold of the boy's hand.
"Oh, nothing. I am always tired."
"Do you tell Mr. Wainwright that you are tired?"
"No. Why should I tell him? I wish he would not order me to take that nasty medicine, that cod liver oil."
"But it is to make you strong, my boy."
"It makes me sick. I always feel sick after it, papa. Madame Vine says I ought to have cream. That would be nice."
"Cream?" repeated Mr. Carlyle, turning his eyes on Madame Vine.
"I have known cream
She felt very anxious about William. He seemed to grow weaker, and she determined to make her fears known to Mr. Carlyle.
She quitted the parlor. She had heard Mr. Carlyle come in. Crossing the hall, she tapped softly at the drawing-room door, and then as softly entered. It was the moment of Mr. Carlyle's loud greeting to his wife. They stood together heedless of her.
Gliding out again, she paced the hall, her hands pressed upon her beating heart. How /dared/ that heart rise up in sharp rebellion at these witnessed tokens of love? Was Barbara not his wife? Had she not a legal claim to all his tenderness? Who was she that she should resent them in her jealousy? What, though they had once been hers, hers only, had she not signed and sealed her own forfeit of them, and so made room for Barbara?
Back to the gray parlor, there she stood, her elbow on the mantelpiece, her eyes hidden by her hand. Thus she remained for some minutes, and Lucy thought how sad she looked.
But Lucy felt hungry, and was casting longing glances to the tea- table. She wondered how long her governess meant to keep it waiting. "Madame Vine," cried she presently, "don't you know that tea is ready?"
This caused Madame Vine to raise her eyes. They fell on the pale boy at her feet. She made no immediate answer, only placed her hand on Lucy's shoulder.
"Oh, Lucy dear, I--I have many sorrows to bear."
"The tea will warm you, and there is some nice jam," was Miss Lucy's offered consolation.
"Their greeting, tender as it may be, is surely over by this time," thought Lady Isabel, an expression something like mockery curving her lips. "I will venture again."
Only to see him with his wife's face on his breast, and his lips bent upon it. But they had heard her this time, and she had to advance, in spite of her spirit of misery and her whitened features.
"Would you be so good sir, as to come and look at William?" she asked in a low tone, of Mr. Carlyle.
"Certainly."
"What for?" interjected Barbara.
"He looks very ill. I do not like his looks. I am fearing whether he can be worse than we have thought."
They went to the gray parlor, all three of them. Mr. Carlyle was in first, and had taken a long, silent look at William before the others entered.
"What is he doing on the floor?" exclaimed Barbara, in her astonishment. "He should not lie on the floor, Madame Vine."
"He lays himself down there at the dusk hour, and I cannot get him up again. I try to persuade him to use the sofa, but it is of no use."
"The floor will not hurt him," said Mr. Carlyle. /This/ was the dark shade: his boy's failing health.
William opened his eyes. "Who's that--papa?"
"Don't you feel well, William?"
"Oh, yes, I'm very well; but I am tired."
"Why do you lie down here?"
"I like lying here. Papa, that pretty white rabbit of mine is dead."
"Indeed. Suppose you get up and tell me all about it."
"I don't know about it myself yet," said William, softly rising. "The gardener told Lucy when she was out just now: I did not go; I was tired. He said--"
"What has tired you?" interrupted Mr. Carlyle, taking hold of the boy's hand.
"Oh, nothing. I am always tired."
"Do you tell Mr. Wainwright that you are tired?"
"No. Why should I tell him? I wish he would not order me to take that nasty medicine, that cod liver oil."
"But it is to make you strong, my boy."
"It makes me sick. I always feel sick after it, papa. Madame Vine says I ought to have cream. That would be nice."
"Cream?" repeated Mr. Carlyle, turning his eyes on Madame Vine.
"I have known cream