Edible Woman - Margaret Atwood [40]
She put a decisive-looking checkmark on the calendar and frowned at it. She bore a chilling resemblance to a general plotting a major campaign.
“Ainsley, what you really need is a blueprint of your bedroom,” I said, “or no, a contour map. Or an aerial photograph. Then you could draw little arrows and dotted lines on it, and an X at the point of conjunction.”
“Please don’t be frivolous,” she said. Now she was counting under her breath.
“When’s it going to be? Tomorrow?”
“Wait a sec,” she said, and counted some more. “No. It can’t be for a while. At least a month anyway. You see, I’ve got to make sure that the first time will do it; or the second.”
“The first time?”
“Yes,” she said, “I’ve got it all worked out. It’s going to be a problem though, you see it all depends on his psychology. I can tell he’s the sort that’ll get scared off if I act too eager. I’ve got to give him lots of rope. Because as soon as he gets anywhere, I can just hear it, he’ll go into the old song-and-dance about maybe we’d better not see each other any more, wouldn’t want this to get too serious, neither of us should get tied down and so on. And he’ll evaporate. I won’t be able to call him up when it’s really essential, he’d accuse me of trying to monopolize his time or of making demands on him or something. But as long as he hasn’t got me,” she said, “I can have him whenever I need him.”
We ruminated together for some moments.
“The place is going to be a problem too,” she said. “It’s all got to seem accidental. A moment of passion. My resistance overcome, swept off my feet and so forth.” She smiled briefly. “Anything prearranged, meeting him at the motel for instance, wouldn’t do at all. So it’s either got to be his place, or here.”
“Here?”
“If necessary,” she said firmly, sliding off her chair. I was silent: the thought of Leonard Slank being undone beneath the same roof that also sheltered the lady down below and her framed family tree was disturbing to me; it would almost be a sacrilege.
Ainsley went into her bedroom, humming busily to herself, taking the calendar with her. I sat thinking about Len. I was again having stirrings of conscience about allowing him to be led flower-garlanded to his doom without even so much as a word of warning. Of course he had asked for it, in a way, I supposed, and Ainsley seemed determined not to make any further claims on whoever she singled out for this somewhat dubious, because anonymous, honour. If Leonard had been merely the standardized ladies’ man I wouldn’t have worried. But surely he was, I reflected as I sipped my coffee, a more complex and delicately adjusted creature. He was a self-consciously lecherous skirt-chaser, granted; but it wasn’t true as Joe had said, that he had no ethical sense. In his own warped way he was a kind of inverted moralist. He liked to talk as though everyone was out for nothing but sex and money, but when anyone provided a demonstration of his theories in real life, he reacted with scalding critical invective. His blend of cynicism and idealism had a lot to do with his preference for “corrupting,” as he called it, greenish girls, as opposed to the more vine-ripened variety. The supposedly pure, the unobtainable, was attractive to the idealist in him; but as soon as it had been obtained, the cynic viewed it as spoiled and threw it away. “She turned out to be just the same as all the rest of them,” he would remark sourly. Women whom he thought of as truly out of his reach, such