Evermore - Alyson Noel [99]
“So you’re saying Riley is stuck?”
She nods. “You have to convince her to go.”
I shake my head, thinking: It’s hardly up to me. “She’s already gone. She barely comes around anymore,” I mumble, glaring at her like she’s responsible, but that’s only because she is.
“You have to give her your blessing. You have to let her know it’s okay.”
“Listen,” I say, tired of this discussion, of Ava butting into my business, telling me how to run my life. “I came here for help, not to listen to this. If Riley wants to stick around, then fine, that’s her business. Just because she’s twelve doesn’t mean I can tell her what to do. She’s pretty stubborn you know?”
“Hmmm, wonder where she gets it?” Ava says, sipping her tea and gazing at me.
But even though she smiles, tries to make like it’s a joke, I just look at her and say, “If you’ve changed your mind about helping me, then just say so.” I rise from my seat, my eyes teary, my body panicky, my head pounding, yet fully prepared to leave if I have to. Remembering what my dad taught me about the key to negotiating—that you have to be willing to walk away—no matter what.
She looks at me for a moment, then motions for me to sit. “As you wish.” She sighs. “Here’s how you do it.”
By the time Ava walks me outside, I’m surprised to see that it’s already dark. I guess I spent more time in there than I realized, going through a step-by-step meditation, learning how to ground myself and create my own psychic shield. But even though things didn’t start off so well, especially all that stuff about Riley, I’m still glad I came. It’s the first time I’ve felt completely normal, without the crutch of alcohol or Damen, in a very long time.
I thank her again, and head for my car, and just as I’m about to climb in, Ava looks at me and says, “Ever?”
I gaze at her, seeing her framed only by the soft yellow light of her porch now that her aura is no longer visible.
“I really wish you’d let me show you how to undo the shield. You might be surprised and find that you miss it,” she coaxes.
But we’ve already been through this, more than once. Besides, I’ve made my decision and there’s no going back. I’m saying hello to a normal life, and good-bye to immortality, Damen, Summerland, psychic phenomenon, and everything else that goes with it. Ever since the accident, all I wanted was to be normal again. And now that I am, I plan to embrace it.
I shake my head and stick my key in the ignition, looking up again when she says, “Ever, please think about what I said. You’ve got it all wrong. You’ve said good-bye to the wrong person.”
“What’re you talking about?” I ask, just wanting to get home, so I can start enjoying my life once again.
But she just smiles. “I think you know what I mean.”
thirty-four
No longer grounded and released of all that psychic baggage, I spend the next few days hanging with Miles and Haven, meeting for coffee, going shopping, seeing movies, trolling around downtown, watching his rehearsals, thrilled to have my life back to normal again. And on Christmas morning, when Riley appears, I’m relieved I can still see her.
“Hey, wait up!” she says, blocking the door just as I’m about to head down the stairs. “No way are you opening your presents without me!” And when she smiles, she’s so radiant and clear she appears almost solid, nothing flimsy, filmy, or translucent about her. “I know what you’re getting!” She grins. “Want a hint?”
I shake my head and laugh. “Absolutely not! I love not knowing for a change,” I say, smiling as she walks over to the middle of my room and executes a perfect series of cartwheels.
“Speaking of surprises.” She giggles. “Jeff bought Sabine a ring! Can you believe it? He moved out of his mom’s house, got his own place, and is begging her to come back and start over!”
“Serious?” I say, taking in her faded jeans and layered tees, glad to see she’s done with the costumes and no longer copying me.
She nods. “But Sabine will send it right back. I mean, at least from what I can tell. It’s not like she’s actually received the ring yet, so