Fire - Kristin Cashore [131]
She tried not to dwell on what it would mean if the healers told her she was going to lose them.
There was another thing she tried, and usually failed, not to dwell on - a memory of an occurrence that had taken place oh, months ago - before the gala planning, before Archer had ever found Mydogg’s wine in Captain Hart’s cellar. Fire had been questioning prisoners, all day, every day, and Archer had watched sometimes. And they’d talked to that foul-mouthed fellow who’d spoken of a tall archer with spot-on aim, a rapist who’d been held in Nax’s dungeons some twenty years ago. Jod. And Fire had been happy, because finally she’d known the name and the nature of her foggy-minded archer.
On that day, she hadn’t remembered that some twenty years ago Nax had hand-picked a brute from his dungeons and sent him north to rape Brocker’s wife, the only happy consequence of which had been the birth of Archer.
The interrogation had ended with Archer punching the informant in the face. On that day, Fire had thought it was because of the man’s language.
And perhaps it had been. Fire would never know now at what point Archer had begun to suspect Jod’s identity. Archer had kept his thoughts and fears to himself. For Fire had just broken his heart.
WHEN THE DAY came, her guards - nineteen of them now, for Mila was not here - wrapped her in many blankets for the journey, and strapped her arms carefully to her body so that her hands would be near her body’s heat. They lifted her into Neel’s saddle, and when Neel climbed up behind her they strapped her loosely to him. The party rode slowly, and Neel was strong and attentive, but still it was frightening to trust oneself entirely to someone else’s balance.
And then, in time, the motion became soothing. She leaned back against him, relinquished responsibility, and slept.
The dappled grey horse, when separated from Fire and faced with the rock people, Fire’s guard, and nineteen military mounts, had proven to be completely wild. It had clopped around on the rocks above ground during her illness, bolting every time a person emerged, refusing to be bridled, or stabled underground, or even approached. But nor did it seem willing to be left behind when it saw Fire being borne away. As the party picked its way east, the horse followed, tentatively, always at a safe distance.
THE BATTLES OF the southern front were waged on the land and in the caves bounded by Gentian’s holding, Fort Flood, and the Winged River. Whatever ground the commander had managed to win or lose, the fort itself was still under royal control. Rising high on an outcrop of rock, surrounded by walls almost as tall as its roofs, it functioned as the army’s headquarters and hospital.
Clara came running to them as they entered the gates. She stood beside Neel’s horse as the guards unstrapped Fire, lowered her to the ground, and unwrapped her from her blankets. Clara was crying, and when she embraced Fire and kissed her face, taking care not to jar Fire’s hands, which were still tied to her body, Fire sank numbly against her. She wished she could wrap her arms around this woman who cried for Archer and whose belly was round with Archer’s baby. She wished she could melt into her.
‘Oh, Fire,’ Clara finally said, ‘we’ve been out of our minds with worry. Brigan leaves tonight for the northern front. It’ll relieve him greatly to see you alive before he goes.’
‘No,’ Fire said, pulling suddenly away from Clara, and startled by her own feeling. ‘Clara, I don’t want to see him. Tell him I wish him well, but I don’t want to see him.’
‘Oh,’ Clara said, taken aback. ‘Well. Are you certain? Because I can’t think how we’re going to stop him, once he returns from the tunnels and learns you’re here.’
The tunnels. Fire sensed her own rising panic. ‘My hands,’ she said, focusing on a more isolated pain. ‘Is there a healer with the time to attend to them?’
THE FINGERS OF her right hand were pinkish and puffy and