Foundation's Edge - Isaac Asimov [174]
"Please, Trevize," said Bliss--and there was a sudden downcast air about her, all of the gamine affectation disappearing. "Do not be angry. You see, I use your name properly and I will be very serious. Dom asked you to be patient."
"By every planet in the Galaxy, habitable or not, I don't want to be patient. If I am so important, do I not deserve an explanation? To begin with, I ask again why Dom did not come with us? Is it not sufficiently important for him to be here on the Far Star with us?"
"He is here, Trevize," said Bliss. "While I am here, he is here, and everyone on Gaia is here, and every living thing, and every speck of the planet."
"You are satisfied that that is so, but it's not my way of thinking. I'm not Gaian. We can't squeeze the whole planet on to my ship, we can only squeeze one person on to it. We have you, and Dom is part of you. Very well. Why couldn't we have taken Dom, and let you be part of him?"
"For one thing," said Bliss, "Pel--I mean, Pel-o-rat--asked that I be on the ship with you. I, not Dom."
"He was being gallant. Who would take that seriously?"
"Oh, now, my dear fellow," said Pelorat, rising to his feet with his face reddening, "I was quite serious. I don't want to be dismissed like that. I accept the fact that it doesn't matter which component of the Gaian whole is on board, and it is more pleasant for me to have Bliss here than Dom, and it should be for you as well. Come, Golan, you are behaving childishly."
"Am I? Am I?" said Trevize, frowning darkly. "All right, then, I am. Just the same," again he pointed at Bliss, "whatever it is I am expected to do, I assure you that I won't do it if I am not treated like a human being. Two questions to begin with--What am I supposed to do? And why me?"
Bliss was wide-eyed and backing away. She said, "Please, I can't tell you that now. All of Gaia can't tell you. You must come to the place without knowing anything to begin with. You must learn it all there. You must then do what you must do--but you must do it calmly and unemotionally. If you remain as you are, nothing will be of use and, one way or another, Gaia will come to an end. You must change this feeling of yours and I do not know how to change it."
"Would Dom know if he were here?" said Trevize remorselessly.
"Dom is here," said Bliss. "He / I / we do not know how to change you or calm you. We do not understand a human being who cannot sense his place in the scheme of things, who does not feel like part of a greater whole."
Trevize said, "That is not so. You could seize my ship at a distance of a million kilometers and more--and keep us calm while we were helpless. Well, calm me now. Don't pretend you are not capable of doing it."
"But we mustn't. Not now. If we changed you or adjusted you in any way now, then you would be no more valuable to us than any other person in the Galaxy and we could not use you. We can only use you because you are you--and you must remain you. If we touch you at this moment in any way, we are lost. Please. You must be calm of your own accord."
"Not a chance, miss, unless you tell me some of what I want to know."
Pelorat said, "Bliss, let me try. Please go into the other room."
Bliss left, backing slowly out. Pelorat closed the door behind her.
Trevize said, "She can hear and see--sense everything. What difference does this make?"
Pelorat said, "It makes a difference to me. I want to be alone with you, even if isolation is an illusion. --Golan, you're afraid."
"Don't be a fool."
"Of course you are. You don't know where you're going, what you'll be facing, what you'll be expected to do. You have a right to be afraid."
"But I'm not."
"Yes, you are. Perhaps you're not afraid of physical danger in the way that I am. I've been afraid of venturing out into space, afraid of each new world I see, afraid of every new thing I encounter. After all,