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Growing Up Amish: A Memoir
Copyright © 2011 by Ira Wagler. All rights reserved.
Cover photograph copyright © by Shawn Thew/Corbis. All rights reserved.
Author photograph copyright © 2010 by Mary June Miller. All rights reserved.
Designed by Jacqueline L. Nuñez
Edited by Susan Taylor
The author is represented by Chip MacGregor of MacGregor Literary, 2373 NW 185th Avenue, Suite 165, Hillsboro, OR 97124.
The names Sarah Miller, Sam Johnson, Gary Simmons, and, in chapters 17, 28, and 30, Eli, are pseudonyms, used to protect their owners’ privacy.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Wagler, Ira.
Growing up Amish : a memoir / Ira Wagler.
p. cm.
ISBN 978-1-4143-3936-8 (sc)
1. Wagler, Ira. 2. Ex-church members—Amish—Biography. I. Title.
BX8143.W22A3 2011
289.7092—dc22
[B] 2011008109
This book is dedicated to my mother,
Ida Mae (Yoder) Wagler,
whose quiet inner strength sustained her through
the long and difficult journey that was her life.
She never wavered in her deep love for all her children,
even—and maybe especially—for her wayward sons,
who broke her heart again and again.
Her love was her sustaining strength.
Table of Contents
Acknowledgments
Prologue
Part 1
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Part 2
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Epilogue
About the Author
Acknowledgments
Special thanks to
Carol Traver of Tyndale, who made this book possible. You saw something, some spark in my jumbled mass of words, and took a chance when others took a pass.
My father, David L. Wagler. You pursued your dreams on your own terms and made them real, thereby lighting my path to my own dreams. In this effort, at least, I hope I did you proud.
My brothers and sisters, all ten of you. Your quiet support has been a rock to me through some of the darkest and most difficult times of my life. I love you all.
My fifty-nine nieces and nephews. You are my first and primary fan club, clamoring and contentious, but always intensely loyal and loving and supportive.
My old friends from way back, the original gang of six. Without you, there would have been a whole lot less to this book.
Marvin Yutzy. You are the best and truest friend any man could hope to have.
Those few friends, and you know who you are, who have been harassing me for the last fifteen years to write my story.
My agent, Chip MacGregor. You got my stuff to the right person.
Jerry S. Eicher. You freely shared with me your contacts in the publishing world.
Susan Taylor, my editor. You patiently and cheerfully took my raw draft of a manuscript and made it sparkle and flow. Along with all the other folks at Tyndale, you rock.
All my coworkers at Graber Supply, LLC. You were there beside me through so much pain and turmoil, until beauty was reborn from the ashes of my life.
LeRoy Whitman. When I was about to walk away and let it all slip through my hands, you called me back to my senses.
All you faithful readers of my blog. You created the foundation on which all the rest is built.
All those friends, too numerous to mention, whose lives touched my own in some profound way throughout the years.
Prologue
One fateful, starless, April night, I got up at 2:00 a.m. in the pitch black darkness, left a scribbled note under my pillow, and walked away—all my earthly belongings stuffed in a little black duffel bag.
Seventeen years old, bound for a vast new world. In my eager mind, the great shining vistas of distant horizons gleamed and beckoned. A world that would fulfill the deep yearning,