In Search of Lost Time, Volume V_ The Captive, the Fugitive - Marcel Proust [403]
This was perhaps what might have happened to me in the long run if Albertine had lived. And yet, comforting though it must after all be, since worldly men and women sacrifice social life and ambition for it, I felt no regret that what might have been had failed to come about, so impervious had I become to the memory of Albertine. I cannot however say that sometimes in the evening, when we returned to our hotel (for, since our encounter with the old Villeparisis-Norpois couple, my mother had decided against our dining elsewhere), I did not feel, in the nervous restlessness of nightfall, that the Albertine of long ago, invisible to myself …
Synopsis
THE CAPTIVE
Life with Albertine. Street sounds (1). Albertine and I under the same roof (2). My mother’s disapproval (6). My irregular sleeping habits (9). Françoise’s respect for tradition (9). Intellectual development and physical change in Albertine (12). My confidence in Andrée (15). I advise against a trip with Andrée to the Buttes-Chaumont (16). I no longer love Albertine, but my jealousy subsists (16). Ubiquity of Gomorrah (20). The virtues of solitude (22). I long to be free of Albertine (26). Jealousy, a spasmodic disease (28).
Visits to the Duchesse de Guermantes (30). What survives of the magic of her name (32; cf. III 28). The Fortuny dresses (34). Attraction of the Duchess’s conversation (34—39). Mme de Chaussepierre (41–42; cf. IV 98). Digression about the Dreyfus case (43–44).
M. de Charlus and Morel chez Jupien (48). “Stand you tea” (49). M. de Charlus receives a note from a club doorman (51). Natural distinction of Jupien’s niece (55). M. de Charlus delighted at the prospect of her marriage with Morel (55). Morel’s capricious sentiments and pathological irritability (59).
The syringa incident (64; cf. 812). Waiting for Albertine’s return: pleasures of art (65). Change in her since she has sensed my jealousy (67). Andrée’s defects; her calumnies about “I’m a wash-out” (70; cf. 815). Reports on her outings with Albertine (71). Albertine’s taste and elegance (75). Variability of the nature of girls (77). Persistence of my desire for the fleeting image of Albertine at Balbec (81). Albertine asleep (84). Watching her sleeping (86), and waking (90). The soothing power of her kiss, comparable to that of my mother at Combray (93). My increasing resemblance to all my relations (95).
Changes of weather; their effect on my indolence (100) and on my jealous suspicions (103). Bloch’s cousin Esther (105). Albertine’s plan to visit Mme Verdurin (108). I suggest other expeditions (113). A “fugitive being” (113–16). Françoise’s hostile prophecies about Albertine (122). Telephone call to Andrée about Albertine’s visit to the Verdurins (124). But can I trust Andrée? (128). Albertine tries to dissuade me