In Search of Lost Time, Volume VI_ Time Regained - Marcel Proust [324]
The narrator and his work. M’s first efforts to express himself in writing; the impact of Bergotte: I 132–34. His desire to translate his sensations and impressions: 218–19. His wish to be a writer; despair at his lack of talent and the “nullity” of his intellect; renounces literature for ever: 243–45, 251–52. The steeples of Martinville inspire him to composition: 253–57. Norpois advocates a literary career for M: II 13, but in such terms as to make him doubly determined to renounce the idea: 31–33; his “prose poem” fails to impress Norpois: 35, who sees in it the malign influence of Bergotte: 60–63 (cf. III 298–99). Bergotte restores his confidence: 196–97. Inability to settle down to work; writing and social life: 209–12, 530; M is distracted from work by the “unknown beauties” who throng the streets of Paris: III 70–71, and by his pursuit of Mme de Guermantes: 82–83. “If only I had been able to start writing!”: 196. He sends an article to Le Figaro: 474, 544. “The invisible vocation of which this book is the history”: 544. Trees near Balbec seem to warn him to set to work before it is too late: IV 560. He scans Le Figaro in vain for his article: V 6, 151. Continued procrastination; changes in the weather an excuse for not working: 100–2. Musings on art and literature while listening to Wagner; is there in art a more profound reality than in life, or is great art merely the result of superior craftsmanship?: 204–10, 259–60. Vinteuil’s septet restores his faith in art and in his vocation: 347–51 (cf. 503–5, 513–14). Appearance of his article in Le Figaro at last; a boost to his self-confidence as a writer; the pleasure of writing incompatible with social pleasures: 766–72. Renewed discouragement during a visit to Tansonville: VI 344, and after reading an unpublished passage from the Goncourt Journal which convinces him not only of his own lack of talent but of the vanity and falsehood of literature: 26, 38 (cf. 239, 254). Renunciation, for several long years, of his project for writing: 46. Salvation at last; the uneven paving-stones; M’s doubts suddenly dissipated; involuntary memory the key: 255–60.