Incubus Dreams - Laurell K. Hamilton [265]
I looked at my face, my eyes so dark, and wondered if I could admit, even to myself, that I still cared that Richard thought I was attractive. Yeah, to myself, I could say it, but I left the towel on.
They were arguing about candles when I came out. Jean-Claude had had some brought in for the bedside tables, and Richard was saying, “We don’t need candles, Jean-Claude. You’re just feeding. That’s it.”
“I vote with Richard. We don’t need candles.”
“The two of you are not romantics.”
“This isn’t about romance, it’s about food,” I said.
Richard motioned to me. “See, Anita agrees with me.”
“Of course, she does, mon ami.” Jean-Claude didn’t sound too put out, he still had that cat-who-ate-the-cream sound to his voice.
The mattress and box springs sat on the floor, covered in new, bloodred sheets. Even the pillowcases had been changed, so that the bed shimmered scarlet in the subdued light. The bed frame being gone probably explained why Richard had removed his jean jacket and was just in an olive green T-shirt.
“I had not realized how dark Jason’s room is,” Jean-Claude was saying. “I have no extra places to put lamps, but we could have more light with candles. I would prefer a romantic reason, but in truth, it is simple practicality. I would like more light.”
“You’re a vampire,” Richard said, “you see in the dark better than I do.”
“True, but if you were allowed to touch someone who rarely allows you to touch them in any intimate fashion, would you not wish light to see what you are doing?” He gave Richard a look, then his eyes slid past him to me. It was a quick look, but Richard followed it, and suddenly he didn’t seem to know what to do with his face, so he turned it back toward the other man.
“Have I missed something here?” I asked, “or am I about to miss something?”
“You miss very little, ma petite.”
“Candles are fine,” Richard said, still not looking at me.
I was shaking my head, but I felt a small touch against my skin. I knew that touch. I dropped the tiniest edge of my shields. Jean-Claude’s voice blew through me like a caressing wind. “Does it mean nothing to you, ma petite, that the mere sight of you in your robe has changed Richard’s mind?”
I shook my head and tried to answer back as silently as he did. I still wasn’t great at it. What I tried to think back was, “Me in this robe with this towel, is not worth him changing his mind.”
“You still do not value yourself, as we value you, ma petite.”
There was that “we” again. I started to open my mouth, to add something out loud, when a warm rush of energy danced through my body. It stopped me in midstep. “Talking in someone’s head, when the other person isn’t allowed into the conversation is rude,” Richard said. “It’s like whispering and pointing.”
I couldn’t argue it, but wanted to. “Trust me, Richard, it’s not worth repeating.”
“I’d like a chance to be the judge of that,” he said.
I sighed, for what felt like the thousandth time today. What had I been thinking? I should have told Jean-Claude that we didn’t need the bed, that Richard could kneel down and he could just feed. Voilà, and we’d be done with it.
Richard took off his T-shirt. “It’s too pale, if you get blood on it, it looks like blood.” He explained it out loud, and it made sense, but I was glad he wasn’t looking at me when he pulled the shirt off, because seeing him shirtless had its usual effect. I’d said before that the day I could