Invisible man - Ralph Ellison [222]
It was as though I had been aroused from sleep and for an instant I stood there looking, listening to the voice almost lost in the clamour of shouts, screams, burglar alarms and sirens.
"Brother, ain't it wonderful," it called. "You said you would lead us, you really said it . . ."
I went down into the street, going slowly but filled with a feverish inner need to be away from that voice. Where had Scofield gone?
Most of their eyes, white in the flame-flushed dark, looked toward the building.
But now I heard someone say, "Woman, who you say that is?" And she proudly repeated my name.
"Where he go? Get him, mahn, Ras wahnt him!"
I went into the crowd, walking slowly, smoothly into the dark crowd, the whole surface of my skin alert, my back chilled, looking, listening to those moving with a heaving and sweating and a burr of talk around me and aware that now that I wanted to see them, needed to see them, I could not; feeling them, a dark mass in motion on a dark night, a black river ripping through a black land; and Ras or Tarp could move beside me and I wouldn't know. I was one with the mass, moving down the littered street over the puddles of oil and milk, my personality blasted. Then I was in the next block, dodging in and out, hearing them somewhere in the crowd behind me; moving on through the sound of sirens and burglar alarms to be swept into a swifter crowd and pushed along, half-running, half-walking, trying to see behind me and wondering where the others had gone. There was shooting back there now, and on either side of me they were throwing garbage cans, bricks and pieces of metal into plate glass windows. I moved, feeling as though a huge force was on the point of bursting. Shouldering my way to the side I stood in a doorway and watched them move, feeling a certain vindication as now I thought of the message that had brought me here. Who had called, one of the district members or someone from Jack's birthday celebration? Who wanted me at the district after it was too late? Very well, I'd go there now. I'd see what the master minds thought now. Where were they anyway, and what profound conclusions were they drawing? What ex post facto lessons of history? And that crash over the telephone, had that been the beginning, or had Jack simply dropped his eye? I laughed drunkenly, the eruption paining my head.
Suddenly the shooting ceased and in the silence there was the sound of voices, footfalls, labor.
"Hey, buddy," somebody said beside me, "where you going?" It was Scofield.
"It's either run or get knocked down," I said. "I thought you were still back there."
"I cut out, man. A building two doors away started to burn and they had to git the fire department . . . Damn! wasn't for this noise I'd swear those bullets was mosquitoes."
"Watch out!" I warned, pulling him away from where a man lay propped against a post, tightening a tourniquet around his gashed arm.
Scofield flashed his light and for a second I saw the black man, his face gray with shock, watching the jetting pulsing of his blood spurting into the street. Then, compelled, I reached down and twisted the tourniquet, feeling the blood warm upon my hand, seeing the pulsing cease.
"You done stopped it," a young man said, looking down.
"Here," I said, "you take it, hold it tight. Get him to a doctor."
"Ain't you a doctor?"
"Me?" I said. "Me? Are you crazy? If you want him to live, get him away from here."
"Albert done gone for one," the boy said. "But I thought you was one. You --"
"No," I said, looking at my bloody hands, "no, not me. You hold it tight until the doctor comes. I couldn't cure a headache."
I stood wiping my hands against the brief case, looking down at the big man, his back resting against the post with his eyes closed, the boy holding desperately to the tourniquet made of what had been a bright new tie.
"Come on," I said.