Island - Aldous Huxley [139]
Completely unencumbered…Will thought of poor Aunt Mary sinking deeper and deeper with every step into the quicksands. Deeper and deeper until, struggling and protesting to the last, she had gone down, completely and forever, into the Essential Horror. He looked again at the fleshless face on the pillow and saw that it was smiling.
“The Light,” came the hoarse whisper, “the Clear Light. It’s here—along with the pain, in spite of the pain.”
“And where are you?” Susila asked.
“Over there, in the corner.” Lakshmi tried to point, but the raised hand faltered and fell back, inert, on the coverlet. “I can see myself there. And she can see my body on the bed.”
“Can she see the Light?”
“No. The Light’s here, where my body is.”
The door of the sickroom was quietly opened. Will turned his head and was in time to see Dr. Robert’s small spare figure emerging from behind the screen into the rosy twilight.
Susila rose and motioned him to her place beside the bed. Dr. Robert sat down and, leaning forward, took his wife’s hand in one of his and laid the other on her forehead.
“It’s me,” he whispered.
“At last…”
A tree, he explained, had fallen across the telephone line. No communication with the High Altitude Station except by road. They had sent a messenger in a car, and the car had broken down. More than two hours had been lost. “But thank goodness,” Dr. Robert concluded, “here I finally am.”
The dying woman sighed profoundly, opened her eyes for a moment and looked up at him with a smile, then closed them again. “I knew you’d come.”
“Lakshmi,” he said very softly. “Lakshmi.” He drew the tips of his fingers across the wrinkled forehead, again and again. “My little love.” There were tears on his cheeks; but his voice was firm and he spoke with the tenderness not of weakness, but of power.
“I’m not over there any more,” Lakshmi whispered.
“She was over there in the corner,” Susila explained to her father-in-law. “Looking at her body here on the bed.”
“But now I’ve come back. Me and the pain, me and the Light, me and you—all together.”
The peacock screamed again and, through the insect noises that in this tropical night were the equivalent of silence, far off but clear came the sound of gay music, flutes and plucked strings and the steady throbbing of drums.
“Listen,” said Dr. Robert. “Can you hear it? They’re dancing.”
“Dancing,” Lakshmi repeated. “Dancing.”
“Dancing so lightly,” Susila whispered. “As though they had wings.”
The music swelled up again into audibility.
“It’s the Courting Dance,” Susila went on.
“The Courting Dance. Robert, do you remember?”
“Could I ever forget?”
Yes, Will said to himself, could one ever forget? Could one ever forget that other distant music and, nearby, unnaturally quick and shallow, the sound of dying breath in a boy’s ears? In the house across the street somebody was practicing one of those Brahms Waltzes that Aunt Mary had loved to play. One-two and three and One-two and three and O-o-o-ne two three, One- and One and Two-Three and One and…The odious stranger who had once been Aunt Mary stirred out of her artificial stupor and opened her eyes. An expression of the most intense malignity had appeared on the yellow, wasted face. “Go and tell them to stop,” the harsh, unrecognizable voice had almost screamed. And then the lines of malignity had changed into the lines of despair, and the stranger, the pitiable odious